Mood: Wide Awake? Is that even a mood lmfao
Song: Unwinding Cable Car; Anberlin
edit: nvm its chill. i'm just rly tired and grumpy xDD
Waking up at 5:50 A.M. for no apparent reason is a really bad idea for me, apparently.
Well I guess I woke up cuz my body is used to Connor calling?
Dunno.
Probably.
But like as I was just laying there I had nothing else to do than just think.
So I got pissed off and actually just woke up.
Pissed because I don't want to think about it.
Because its done and over.
Because its not worth it.
And there's nothing I can do.
It upsets me.
I think because I know I won't take her back?
And that kind of hurts.
Cuz we were pretty good friends even if I just kinda needed her to cling to.
I guess closure always hurts?
Its not even closure. I just shut the door.
I got to thinking about it last night too because Brittney and Kait were both really sad.
And people's emotions usually tend to rub off on me.
It pisses me off because I know idk.
I know I don't want to dwell on it or show it because its stupid for me to be upset about it all.
And no one likes an upset, lame Paige. She's no fun.
Makes me angry that I'm wasting another journal on it. );<
I should be talking about my boo.
I miss his cute stoner voice haha.
I can't wait till Zak gives him his cam and I get to see that cute smile on his face.
And his silly bracelets and his peaaaace necklace.
A display picture is great and everything, but the real moving thing omg. That's just..omg <3 Amazing ; ____ ;
& I don't wanna worry about it too much because then it'll bother Connur. He doesn't like it when I'm upset. ): I blame lisa so hxc. You have no idea.
Song: Unwinding Cable Car; Anberlin
edit: nvm its chill. i'm just rly tired and grumpy xDD
Waking up at 5:50 A.M. for no apparent reason is a really bad idea for me, apparently.
Well I guess I woke up cuz my body is used to Connor calling?
Dunno.
Probably.
But like as I was just laying there I had nothing else to do than just think.
So I got pissed off and actually just woke up.
Pissed because I don't want to think about it.
Because its done and over.
Because its not worth it.
And there's nothing I can do.
It upsets me.
I think because I know I won't take her back?
And that kind of hurts.
Cuz we were pretty good friends even if I just kinda needed her to cling to.
I guess closure always hurts?
Its not even closure. I just shut the door.
I got to thinking about it last night too because Brittney and Kait were both really sad.
And people's emotions usually tend to rub off on me.
It pisses me off because I know idk.
I know I don't want to dwell on it or show it because its stupid for me to be upset about it all.
And no one likes an upset, lame Paige. She's no fun.
Makes me angry that I'm wasting another journal on it. );<
I should be talking about my boo.
I miss his cute stoner voice haha.
I can't wait till Zak gives him his cam and I get to see that cute smile on his face.
And his silly bracelets and his peaaaace necklace.
A display picture is great and everything, but the real moving thing omg. That's just..omg <3 Amazing ; ____ ;
& I don't wanna worry about it too much because then it'll bother Connur. He doesn't like it when I'm upset. ): I blame lisa so hxc. You have no idea.
