Mood: Sleepy
Song: Walking Disaster; Sum 41
Omg wtf I'm so sleepy today. );
I don't even know why.
I had a ******** up dream though.
Frank was trying to tell me to not say ********
And I was like "No ******** you you're not my dad so stfu."
I had some major rage problems in my dream. Haha.
Uhh it rained all freaking day.
Which is okay I suppose. We haven't really had a nice rainy day in awhile.
And its getting colder fersure!.
I like the cold. Dunno why.
And the ******** People are super annoying today.
Even at school, god.
I was like "omgg please shut the ******** up."
AND YESSSS Tomorrow will be just a month to wait!
I wish I wasn't so damn bored.
& My back really hurts ):
Poooooooo.
I might skip Friday I dunno.
Since I'm already missing days because of Voodoo.
Ughhhhhhhhhh, painn in my back.
I wanna race for the future.
Which is weird because I used to live for the past.
Then I decided to live for the present.
Now I want the future to come.
Its odd.
And not really all that good?
Because you're just supposed to live in the here and the now?
I dunno.
My brain is like "blahhhhh im tired give me sum z's"
I feel like I'm missing out on something.
Well..Not..Missing out?
I feel like..I'm not accomplishing something.
Like I'm not doing something I'm supposed to be doing.
I really don't feel like a people person right now.
Its weird.
I feel like a people watcher.
I just wanna watch people and analyze them.
SUPER CREEPY.
Its bothering me haha.
When I think of the future its very idealistic.
A fantasy, I suppose.
I see myself happily living in New Orleans, with a nice paying job, and Connor is by my side.
Everything's awesome opossum, well as awesome as life can be with its ups and downs.
I know that my plans probably won't go as perfect as I imagine, but my ideals help pave way for a future I want.
It sort of scares me just how much my ambitions have dropped.
I mean I've always been lazy and s**t.
But I dreamed big haha.
Now I'm just like if I have these basic essentials, I'm good.
I don't know if that's good or bad?
Well I guess what I see as something I've achieved that is awesome and what another person sees is completely different.
I may think I did some awesome s**t, but they're just like "psh whatever."
Completely subjective in a way?
Then why have such high standards in the first place...? Whoa wtf am I just realizing that? Haha.
Wow. As long as I think I've accomplished something I'm doing swell.
Takes a lot of pressure off of you. ;l
I don't think I wanna go to Loyola.
I mean I'll apply. But if I don't get it I'm not gonna cry, I still want to move to New Orleans though. Go to another college down there.
I think I'll keep this a secret from my parents ohohoh.
Goddd I know I love that kid.
Like a bunch.
Cuz when hes down, I automatically feel down.
When he feels weird, I pick up on it and start to feel weird.
I'm not usually like that with anyone haha.
Sometimes I get scared that I'm gonna suffocate him with my love haha.
Song: Walking Disaster; Sum 41
Omg wtf I'm so sleepy today. );
I don't even know why.
I had a ******** up dream though.
Frank was trying to tell me to not say ********
And I was like "No ******** you you're not my dad so stfu."
I had some major rage problems in my dream. Haha.
Uhh it rained all freaking day.
Which is okay I suppose. We haven't really had a nice rainy day in awhile.
And its getting colder fersure!.
I like the cold. Dunno why.
And the ******** People are super annoying today.
Even at school, god.
I was like "omgg please shut the ******** up."
AND YESSSS Tomorrow will be just a month to wait!
I wish I wasn't so damn bored.
& My back really hurts ):
Poooooooo.
I might skip Friday I dunno.
Since I'm already missing days because of Voodoo.
Ughhhhhhhhhh, painn in my back.
I wanna race for the future.
Which is weird because I used to live for the past.
Then I decided to live for the present.
Now I want the future to come.
Its odd.
And not really all that good?
Because you're just supposed to live in the here and the now?
I dunno.
My brain is like "blahhhhh im tired give me sum z's"
I feel like I'm missing out on something.
Well..Not..Missing out?
I feel like..I'm not accomplishing something.
Like I'm not doing something I'm supposed to be doing.
I really don't feel like a people person right now.
Its weird.
I feel like a people watcher.
I just wanna watch people and analyze them.
SUPER CREEPY.
Its bothering me haha.
When I think of the future its very idealistic.
A fantasy, I suppose.
I see myself happily living in New Orleans, with a nice paying job, and Connor is by my side.
Everything's awesome opossum, well as awesome as life can be with its ups and downs.
I know that my plans probably won't go as perfect as I imagine, but my ideals help pave way for a future I want.
It sort of scares me just how much my ambitions have dropped.
I mean I've always been lazy and s**t.
But I dreamed big haha.
Now I'm just like if I have these basic essentials, I'm good.
I don't know if that's good or bad?
Well I guess what I see as something I've achieved that is awesome and what another person sees is completely different.
I may think I did some awesome s**t, but they're just like "psh whatever."
Completely subjective in a way?
Then why have such high standards in the first place...? Whoa wtf am I just realizing that? Haha.
Wow. As long as I think I've accomplished something I'm doing swell.
Takes a lot of pressure off of you. ;l
I don't think I wanna go to Loyola.
I mean I'll apply. But if I don't get it I'm not gonna cry, I still want to move to New Orleans though. Go to another college down there.
I think I'll keep this a secret from my parents ohohoh.
Goddd I know I love that kid.
Like a bunch.
Cuz when hes down, I automatically feel down.
When he feels weird, I pick up on it and start to feel weird.
I'm not usually like that with anyone haha.
Sometimes I get scared that I'm gonna suffocate him with my love haha.
