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Shh.
Don't utter a word.
Let the silence ring in your ears.

Shh.
Speaking becomes too much of a hassle.
Just let the beating of your heart say what you think for you.

My grandpaw has stage 4 cancer.
They can't do anything about it.
So basically his hourglass is dwindling down, no one knows when the cancer might win the battle.
But my grandfather is an especially strong man.
He's raised three children and two grandchildren.
I'm almost confident he'll stay strong and not give up.

At the same time though its scary.
I have no words to speak.
I guess I just don't know what to say.

Because I know if he does die, the family may just fall apart.
My grandmother will drink herself to death and then I don't know.
The thought of not having grandparents has never crossed my mind.

I wish Connor was here.
Just his company would be enough.
Even though he's not here, just IMing him and texting or even hearing his voice would sooth my nerves.

Its my grandfather's birthday too.
Sucks he had to get news like this on his bday.

But gotta keep the cheerfulness up.
Cuz without it, there's just melancholy. Which suuucks. ;l