Mood: Fine
Song: Rich b***h; Die Antwoord
Life is so weird now.
Not weird just different?
I have more friends at school that I actually talk to rather than Beth and Bethany.
And...I don't know.
I feel like I'm in a separate place when I talk to Connor on the phone.
Its weird.
He's the closest thing I have right now.
Its like..We're above being best friends.
I still trust him a ton haha.
I don't trust Brittney anymore.
I still talk to her like normal but I feel detached.
I don't want to trust her. Unless she earns it again I suppose.
Last night was just...Kinda sorta awesome.
I still don't why you started tearing up. ): <
And I wish you had told me.
I felt bad, like I had said something.
Which I probably did?
I don't think it was that I hurt your feelings...? OH GOD I HOPE NOT D:
"Oh I don't remember why"
You liar! ): <
You do remember, I just don't think you want to tell me.
You're not really one to share your emotions openly just like that.
I've known you for years Connor ): <
Don't try and hide from me, I'll drag it out of you!
And you're a bad liar!
I wish I could come visit you for Christmas ):
Like for real. That'd make my birthday month just amazing.
YOU KNOW THOUGH.
You can come up here! I could help you pay for the ticket!!
Its a good ideaaaaa, sooo you should say yes.
I don't really know what we'd do honestly...Haha.
I could nerd out and show you all my games....LOL.
Nah I'd probably just take you around and show you stuff.
Let you meet my friends. I think you'd like them, though they're a little annoying at first.
Life is so mundane.
I was afraid this would happen...
Life just isn't...as bright? Without you.
I suppose its bad that I'm so attached to you.
Dependent, something I've never wanted to become.
But every now and then it feels nice to depend on someone, you know?
I got jealous last night when you were talking about that chick.
DUDE I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY. ITS HORRIBLE.
I hate being the jealous type its so lame. xD
Cuz I'm perfectly aware that people find other people attractive even when they're emotionally attached to another person.
So I don't know why it bothered me so much.
I MEAN. I do know! I just think its silly and stupid.
I miss you.
It was so hard not to tell you that I loved you when you were crying.
Ha.
I was just like "no don't do it dont do it."
So instead I just sounded retarded. LOL "DON'T...CRY...." /girlie a** voice.
Blah life is so boring and predicable!
I'm TIRED OF SCHOOOLLL.
But I won't see any of my friends after it...probably. ):!
I'll just have to try super hard to get in touch with them...Which is bad cuz I'm super lazy.
Poo poo.
I wanna go to New Orleans.
I actually WANT to go to college.
And I need to take my ACT again.
Song: Rich b***h; Die Antwoord
Life is so weird now.
Not weird just different?
I have more friends at school that I actually talk to rather than Beth and Bethany.
And...I don't know.
I feel like I'm in a separate place when I talk to Connor on the phone.
Its weird.
He's the closest thing I have right now.
Its like..We're above being best friends.
I still trust him a ton haha.
I don't trust Brittney anymore.
I still talk to her like normal but I feel detached.
I don't want to trust her. Unless she earns it again I suppose.
Last night was just...Kinda sorta awesome.
I still don't why you started tearing up. ): <
And I wish you had told me.
I felt bad, like I had said something.
Which I probably did?
I don't think it was that I hurt your feelings...? OH GOD I HOPE NOT D:
"Oh I don't remember why"
You liar! ): <
You do remember, I just don't think you want to tell me.
You're not really one to share your emotions openly just like that.
I've known you for years Connor ): <
Don't try and hide from me, I'll drag it out of you!
And you're a bad liar!
I wish I could come visit you for Christmas ):
Like for real. That'd make my birthday month just amazing.
YOU KNOW THOUGH.
You can come up here! I could help you pay for the ticket!!
Its a good ideaaaaa, sooo you should say yes.
I don't really know what we'd do honestly...Haha.
I could nerd out and show you all my games....LOL.
Nah I'd probably just take you around and show you stuff.
Let you meet my friends. I think you'd like them, though they're a little annoying at first.
Life is so mundane.
I was afraid this would happen...
Life just isn't...as bright? Without you.
I suppose its bad that I'm so attached to you.
Dependent, something I've never wanted to become.
But every now and then it feels nice to depend on someone, you know?
I got jealous last night when you were talking about that chick.
DUDE I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY. ITS HORRIBLE.
I hate being the jealous type its so lame. xD
Cuz I'm perfectly aware that people find other people attractive even when they're emotionally attached to another person.
So I don't know why it bothered me so much.
I MEAN. I do know! I just think its silly and stupid.
I miss you.
It was so hard not to tell you that I loved you when you were crying.
Ha.
I was just like "no don't do it dont do it."
So instead I just sounded retarded. LOL "DON'T...CRY...." /girlie a** voice.
Blah life is so boring and predicable!
I'm TIRED OF SCHOOOLLL.
But I won't see any of my friends after it...probably. ):!
I'll just have to try super hard to get in touch with them...Which is bad cuz I'm super lazy.
Poo poo.
I wanna go to New Orleans.
I actually WANT to go to college.
And I need to take my ACT again.
