Mood: Kinda Depressed
Song: I Know Where You Sleep; Emilie Autumn
Blaah
Ever had one of those days where you're just a bundle of upsetness?
That's how I feel today.
It started in art.
I just felt like...I wasn't good enough?
Haha it sounds so emo.
I'm used to being above average.
Now I feel...Average, almost a little below average.
I feel like I'm not very good at art.
Or writing.
Or school.
I feel stupid.
And drained of my inspirations and talents.
Then other things are bothering me.
Like how Travis and I hardly talk, and don't give me poo about it just happening.
That doesn't happen to best friends. ):
Its like he's lost interest in me. But I guess he could be busy.
I just feel like I did something wrong.
And then with Brittney.
I don't even know dude.
Then there's Connor.
I feel like its my fault we broke up. Which its not even my fault or his.
I just feel like I failed at being a good girlfriend since I couldn't do anything.
I still can't.
I guess I'm also a bad friend too, I didn't even know why he was crying.
I don't know how to feel about us anymore.
That's what bothers me most.
Its like I have all these pent up frustrations pertaining to us.
There's nothing I can do though, because at the moment they're unsolvable.
I feel so helpless to so much. Its retarded. Ugh.
this always happens every few months.
I feel completely miserable for a couple days.
Its not my period so gtfo.
I just want to be the best at something but there's always someone better at it than you.
******** emotions! 8l
Song: I Know Where You Sleep; Emilie Autumn
Blaah
Ever had one of those days where you're just a bundle of upsetness?
That's how I feel today.
It started in art.
I just felt like...I wasn't good enough?
Haha it sounds so emo.
I'm used to being above average.
Now I feel...Average, almost a little below average.
I feel like I'm not very good at art.
Or writing.
Or school.
I feel stupid.
And drained of my inspirations and talents.
Then other things are bothering me.
Like how Travis and I hardly talk, and don't give me poo about it just happening.
That doesn't happen to best friends. ):
Its like he's lost interest in me. But I guess he could be busy.
I just feel like I did something wrong.
And then with Brittney.
I don't even know dude.
Then there's Connor.
I feel like its my fault we broke up. Which its not even my fault or his.
I just feel like I failed at being a good girlfriend since I couldn't do anything.
I still can't.
I guess I'm also a bad friend too, I didn't even know why he was crying.
I don't know how to feel about us anymore.
That's what bothers me most.
Its like I have all these pent up frustrations pertaining to us.
There's nothing I can do though, because at the moment they're unsolvable.
I feel so helpless to so much. Its retarded. Ugh.
this always happens every few months.
I feel completely miserable for a couple days.
Its not my period so gtfo.
I just want to be the best at something but there's always someone better at it than you.
******** emotions! 8l
