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What am I to expect?
I feel safe with him regardless of the past.
But with anyone else I run.
We're a disaster born just to happen.
I won't say that we'll stay in each other's lives for forever.
I would like to think we would.

But I'm just so tired of expecting things and having them not be real.
I'll work for it.
Work for it hard.
We've got to mean something right? This has got to be SOMETHING, right?

Its just never been the right place or time for us.

I know that I'm running from him.
Because he just isn't...You.
I guess.
I just don't wanna be hurt and if he doesn't have the balls to actually come to me, then ******** em.
Right?
I guess thats should be my first notice that I never cared for him THAT much.
Though I am sad, we could have had something.

But I guess in the end it comes back to me and you.
Wonder why fate tied us together.
We're total opposites.
Perhaps that's why we attract each other.
Or maybe its the fact that...No matter what we do to each other, we forgive one another.
We're all we have in this mad world.

I have the feeling you lost someone dear to you.
Which is why you changed.
Well...Why you became jaded.
More so jaded.
I feel for you.
More than you know.

I still sometimes wonder what life would be like if you were here.
Probably just as difficult.
I think I'm gonna go visit you this summer.
Cuz right now it feels like the right thing to do.

I've pretty much accepted that I probably won't marry.
I wonder if that's a sad thing.
Its odd.
I look into my future and see myself alone, but not unhappy.
For some reason you're still there.
Dunno.

We're all we've got.