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Let's see.
Bought some foundation today.
Feels weird on my skin.
Gonna just use it for sleepy eyes.
Don't really need foundation.
Just wanna look purdy.
Well purdier.
Like one of those people who never exist.

The days are dwindling down.
I'm nervous as nervous can get.

I'm almost afraid it will be totally different than last time.
I want it to be the same.
That feeling.
The electric bolt.

But people change.
And feelings change.

Luis is weird.
He has this beautiful girl just there.
Ready to give her heart to him completely.
But still he resists.
Even though he feels for her.

I don't understand people.

How can they be so selfish.
Obviously they could be something awesome, but he's too chicken s**t.
Get the ******** over it.
People get hurt, welcome to reality.
You're going to get hurt multiple times.
Grow up.

I can understand going out of your way NOT to do something that is RISKY.
But if you've never even given it a shot, why turn it down?
The wine could taste so sweet and you'd never even know.

I hope things turn out wonderfully with Connor.
He makes my heart flutter.
But at the same time I sometimes want to punch him in the face.
I don't care if we even have sex.
Just wanna cuddle bro.