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I can't stop shaking for some reason.
My legs feel like jello.
and my heart is beating all heavily.

I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.

Aching.
Shaking.
Jello-yyy.

These feelings are associated with you though.
I feel like there may be no more room left in your heart for me.
From all the suffering you went through, while I was gone.

I didn't even know.
I thought you were just going on, living life to its fullest like you always do.
But you went through something.
that you won't even completely tell Kait.
Let alone me.

Deals with Yamato though.
I know that fer sure.
I'm afraid after that you won't find anyone worth...Keeping?
No, that's not the right word to say.

I'm afraid that you just won't find anyone worth fighting for because you're afraid of that burn.
You still haven't healed.
Drives me mad crazy.

Is there enough room in your heart to 'love' me?
Or is there just enough room to feel a step above friendship for me.
Can I squeeze my way into that heart of yours, a heart which used to be so full of love - that is now so small and cold.

Do I have a right to step into your heart again?

I need to stand back and assess my feelings as well.
Do I feel love for you?
Or is it just the baggage we have that I still feel.

I need to see you.
I need to set things straight.
Figure feelings out.

Home is where the heart is.
Make me feel that again.
If not, then I'll be a good friend but nothing more.

Make me feel that electric spark we had.



Go into this with no expectations, Paige.
Keep your mind open and clear.

It just feels weird not talking to you everyday like I did last year before I went.

I need to get over that paranoia of being left behind.