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I feel so empty.
You know how you get that choking feeling in your throat before you cry?
That's how I've felt ever since I came back home.
Your last words were "Everything's going to be fine."
But it doesn't seem like it.

Everything felt so perfect.
When you spend a week with someone, you connect you know.
Its so weird looking over and not seeing you.
Its so weird sleeping in an almost empty bed.

I think it almost hurts more that you won't admit you miss me, when its positively clear that you do.
Maybe you're afraid of what happened last time.
Is the distance gonna kill us again?
Its not any shorter this time.

I know what I want.
Do you?
I think you do, you just don't wanna say it.
Because once you do, everything changes.

What the hell do I do?

How do I know you won't run away again?

And more importantly how do I tell you these things without freaking you out?

Do I drop everything I know here, and move down there?
I'm afraid of love and I'm afraid of you - in a way.

It kills me.
Hearing how sad you sound.
It just breaks my heart even more.

Is it so simple to just move down there and start a live in New Orleans?
When you can ask yourself if someone is worth that big of a jump and you tell yourself yes but then your rational/scared self says "what the hell?"
What do you do?

Am I ready for that kinda leap?
He didn't deny that we weren't dating..
But he didn't introduce me as his girlfriend either....So..xD

God its all so confusing!
I guess I don't need the title.
But its confusing when you won't admit that you miss me and stuff.

Its okay though I guess.
Since I know you well enough to tell that you do.

I don't know what to even expect anymore.