Sometimes I really just don't think you understand.
I'm sensitive whether or not you think so or don't.
I'm especially sensitive when it comes to you...
So I mean its not really fair to leave me in the dark and have me worry like that.
I wasn't accusing you of anything.
I just worried I did something I didn't know about that made you upset.
I was concerned with your feelings.
Sometimes I'm insensitive to other people's emotions...
But you know.
I'm jealous of Alex.
Its stupid but I just am.
Clearly you care more about him than me. Which hurts to realize, but at the same time its expected...
You're my number one and sometimes I forget that I can't always be yours...
It bothers me a lot you know.
Sometimes you seem too far away.
Too far and too cold.
It makes me even more upset.
You know it wasn't fair to just leave me in the dark like that.
If you had texted me and gotten no reply you would have kept texting or calling.
Until I feel my phone vibrate or usually I drop what I'm doing to talk to you.
Its frustrating that, that doesn't go two ways.
I usually wait a good while for you to text me back if you EVER even do.
And you definitely never really answer when I call.
I'm not trying to play you out to be the bad guy..
But just realize that when you don't call for two days or text, I get worried something happened.
I don't tell you these things because I'm scared you're going to feel like I'm attacking you or something when in all honesty I'm not.
I guess its just honestly I care too much.
I feel empty when I don't get to talk to you.
And the jealousy I have makes me realize how unfair I am.
I'm a horrible person. I know this.
And I try to keep this from everyone, I don't want you to know how jealous and selfish I am.
I want you all to myself and its not fair.
I get jealous over you playing video games so much.
I get jealous over all the weed you smoke.
I get jealous over Alex.
I get jealous over stupid s**t on facebook.
Its all just so ridiculous.
And they way you just kinda blew everything off...Just.
Makes me realize how stupid it is and how much it SHOULDN'T upset me.
But it does. It does a lot.
Part of the problem is we're miles apart.
But I'm trying my best to come closer...
Its just...I need to know if you want me to..):
Usually when I ask, you're just so 'whatever' about it.
I know you don't want you to be the only reason I'm moving, but you know? Sometimes that big of a jump is worth it.
Besides I hate the ******** out of where I am right now.
My house is driving me ******** insane.
Its chaotic.
People are unhappy almost everyday, and I'm pretty sure that's rubbing off on me.
My gramma still cries almost everyday over my grandpaw.
Melissa and Farmer are usually always arguing.
Isaac is being a d**k ********.
My mom is more concerned with Paqui getting out of jail than anything else in the world.
********. Nuts.
No wonder my uncle left.
God I'm just bitchy.
And upset.
I get upset over stupid things that don't matter.
I'm too sensitive when it comes to that whole topic.
I'm sensitive whether or not you think so or don't.
I'm especially sensitive when it comes to you...
So I mean its not really fair to leave me in the dark and have me worry like that.
I wasn't accusing you of anything.
I just worried I did something I didn't know about that made you upset.
I was concerned with your feelings.
Sometimes I'm insensitive to other people's emotions...
But you know.
I'm jealous of Alex.
Its stupid but I just am.
Clearly you care more about him than me. Which hurts to realize, but at the same time its expected...
You're my number one and sometimes I forget that I can't always be yours...
It bothers me a lot you know.
Sometimes you seem too far away.
Too far and too cold.
It makes me even more upset.
You know it wasn't fair to just leave me in the dark like that.
If you had texted me and gotten no reply you would have kept texting or calling.
Until I feel my phone vibrate or usually I drop what I'm doing to talk to you.
Its frustrating that, that doesn't go two ways.
I usually wait a good while for you to text me back if you EVER even do.
And you definitely never really answer when I call.
I'm not trying to play you out to be the bad guy..
But just realize that when you don't call for two days or text, I get worried something happened.
I don't tell you these things because I'm scared you're going to feel like I'm attacking you or something when in all honesty I'm not.
I guess its just honestly I care too much.
I feel empty when I don't get to talk to you.
And the jealousy I have makes me realize how unfair I am.
I'm a horrible person. I know this.
And I try to keep this from everyone, I don't want you to know how jealous and selfish I am.
I want you all to myself and its not fair.
I get jealous over you playing video games so much.
I get jealous over all the weed you smoke.
I get jealous over Alex.
I get jealous over stupid s**t on facebook.
Its all just so ridiculous.
And they way you just kinda blew everything off...Just.
Makes me realize how stupid it is and how much it SHOULDN'T upset me.
But it does. It does a lot.
Part of the problem is we're miles apart.
But I'm trying my best to come closer...
Its just...I need to know if you want me to..):
Usually when I ask, you're just so 'whatever' about it.
I know you don't want you to be the only reason I'm moving, but you know? Sometimes that big of a jump is worth it.
Besides I hate the ******** out of where I am right now.
My house is driving me ******** insane.
Its chaotic.
People are unhappy almost everyday, and I'm pretty sure that's rubbing off on me.
My gramma still cries almost everyday over my grandpaw.
Melissa and Farmer are usually always arguing.
Isaac is being a d**k ********.
My mom is more concerned with Paqui getting out of jail than anything else in the world.
********. Nuts.
No wonder my uncle left.
God I'm just bitchy.
And upset.
I get upset over stupid things that don't matter.
I'm too sensitive when it comes to that whole topic.
