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There comes a time for everything to end right?
Brittney, I can't accept the fact you and Kyle are dating.
Simple.
And I will not tolerate him treating you the way he does, it bothers me.
The best solution?
To leave.
I've told you once before "once a cheater, always a cheater"
Then what happened? He cheated on you.
And you expect it not to happen this go round. Ha. Maybe.
You say I've called him things like an idiot. Yes, I have.
Then you of course defended him.
Did you defend me when he said I was selfish and immature?
Nope.
Which is hilarious to me considering the only reason I said a word on your status was to defend you.
Which is not selfish by any means, or immature.
What I said to him wasn't immature either - it was the truth. Not my fault if you guys aren't ready to accept the truth.
And honestly I've given more to you than you've given to me.
Yeah true you've given me company, but even that lacked.
Thinking about it now Kait kept me company when my grandfather died better than you did.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, even if I b***h about Kyle and you change it for awhile - that's just it.
It'll be better for what a week or two? Then it will happen again.
I'm not going to sit by and let him walk all over you and treat you like you're an idiot and down talk you.
And if you're not going to change your relationship with him, which obviously you're not, then I'll leave.
I've never respected people who continue to give faith in someone who obviously doesn't deserve it.
You can say "My mother said to always give people second chances"
He's had his second chance. And do you really think your mother would want you to still be with him after what he did?

I finally realized I was letting Connor walk all over me.
And that's finally done now.
He's gone from my life for good probably.
I'm not going to accept to be anything less than what I feel I'm worth.
I'm not going to let him decide when he's going to give me the time of day. I deserve more than that. So do you.
I've always thought the happiness with him out weighed the unhappiness. But it honestly doesn't.
If you're not happy 95% of the time, its not worth it.

I'm sad to see our relationship go because of a boy, but I suppose you could say the same to me.
If you can't handle me telling him my opinion or telling you, then we shouldn't even bother. I'm just that type of person.
I think you're being weak.
My life has changed drastically not even in a year. I'm too tired of wasting time on people who aren't going to give me the 110% I'm giving them.
I'm done putting up with this bullshit called Kyle.
You would have picked him over me anyway because he lives there.
So I'm saving you the trouble.

You probably think I'm being over dramatic.
But I'm not about to see someone ruin my best friend's life.
You're going to let me walk out anyway. It's easier for you isn't it?
Easier for everyone to just let people walk out because that's what 'they want'
If you're not giving it your all, don't even bother.
And you're obviously not giving it your all - neither am I.
So let's not even bother.
Things aren't how they used to be between us.
I'm totally different.
And you're totally different now.
Have fun with Kyle being your lover and replacing me as your Best Friend.

And Connor.
I'm done with this s**t.
You're either with me or not.
Quit pitying yourself.
So I got with a guy.
I didn't even let him ******** me. BECAUSE OF YOU.
And that reason wasn't good enough for you?
Haha. Do you even realize you've done pretty much the same thing?
You know I have a crazy memory when it comes to you.
I remember every which way you betrayed and hurt me, but for years I've forgiven you in hopes we'd move on.
We never have.
I'm done standing still and waiting for you to commit.
You changed.
Cold.
The disappointment I feel in the both of you is outstanding.

The two people I held so highly in my life are crashing down.
Its something you never expect to happen, at the same time.
Both of you have let me down in more ways than you'll ever know.
I'm sure I'm letting you down too, though.
Its such a damn endless cycle that I'm tired of.
So the best thing is to put an end to it, right?
All of us need to mature and develop. Maybe then I can be friends with you two again.
But then I have a sinking feeling that it'd be too late.