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I'll just sit here and drown.
I can't seem to find the energy to get up and change my life.
So why bother bitching about it?

I feel so unsatisfied with all my relationships.
They all suddenly are dry and barren.

Alone and cold.
Like hot tea that's been left standing on the table.

I feel self destructive.
Its weird.
My relationship with you, at times its just evil.
I sit here and think of all the awful things I could do to you if you ever hurt me.
Like I feel as if you've already committed a crime.
You haven't even done anything..
I'm out of touch.
I just want to be happy with you like I used to.
I just want to trust you as well as I used to.
I want to be able to give you my everything like I used to.

But I feel as if I can't.
I'm scared to give it to you, for I feel like you'd break it all.
Perhaps I'm just tired of being chipped away at.
That's what its been all along, both of us just taking nips and nabs at each other.

Things don't feel so simple anymore.

Maybe I'm just tired and still stressed about school.
I don't know.