I'm in such a frenzy.
I need to finish my study abroad forms and I can't get my login in to work.
And I don't know if anyone is at the office and everything is due Monday.
I'm apparently graduating after taking just three more classes after next semester.
I LITERALLY just changed my major to Associate of Arts, which is super generic.
I still don't know if I'm going to a four year.
I don't know what I want to do with my life yet.
Its such a huge decision it freaks me out.
What if I waste all that money and change my mind and then I eventually have no more money for school?
Stride Rite isn't paying me for s**t.
I need to bring my grades up in Biology but its looking pretty impossible considering she's the toughest teacher I've ever encountered.
I still need to do extra credit for Biology and English.
I have an English paper to write.
I need to correct my French composition.
I don't want to bother Connor with all this chaotic mess.
Because he's got enough on his plate and I've already been kind of an emotional craze thanks to my period.
And when I told him I was graduating he was all "With what? xD"
And I know he didn't mean it like "o so you finally picked something out after being in college for so long?"
Because that's what I think of myself.
I'm not proud.
I don't feel like I've accomplished anything.
I picked a major/degree last minute.
Which it means virtually nothing to me.
But I still don't know what I want.
Shouldn't I know by now?
I wish you were here to give me support.
I feel like the floor underneath me is just crumbling and I'm about to plummet into a deep hole.
Where's an epiphany when you need one?
I guess they wouldn't call it an epiphany if it just happened whenever you want.
Everyone I've told is proud of me.
But what's that mean if I'm not even proud of myself?
I should be excited and prepared to start a new chapter in my life, but I feel like I'm just in a daze.
That feeling of being underwater where everything's muffled and you feel weight on you and stuck.
I need a nap.
I need to finish my study abroad forms and I can't get my login in to work.
And I don't know if anyone is at the office and everything is due Monday.
I'm apparently graduating after taking just three more classes after next semester.
I LITERALLY just changed my major to Associate of Arts, which is super generic.
I still don't know if I'm going to a four year.
I don't know what I want to do with my life yet.
Its such a huge decision it freaks me out.
What if I waste all that money and change my mind and then I eventually have no more money for school?
Stride Rite isn't paying me for s**t.
I need to bring my grades up in Biology but its looking pretty impossible considering she's the toughest teacher I've ever encountered.
I still need to do extra credit for Biology and English.
I have an English paper to write.
I need to correct my French composition.
I don't want to bother Connor with all this chaotic mess.
Because he's got enough on his plate and I've already been kind of an emotional craze thanks to my period.
And when I told him I was graduating he was all "With what? xD"
And I know he didn't mean it like "o so you finally picked something out after being in college for so long?"
Because that's what I think of myself.
I'm not proud.
I don't feel like I've accomplished anything.
I picked a major/degree last minute.
Which it means virtually nothing to me.
But I still don't know what I want.
Shouldn't I know by now?
I wish you were here to give me support.
I feel like the floor underneath me is just crumbling and I'm about to plummet into a deep hole.
Where's an epiphany when you need one?
I guess they wouldn't call it an epiphany if it just happened whenever you want.
Everyone I've told is proud of me.
But what's that mean if I'm not even proud of myself?
I should be excited and prepared to start a new chapter in my life, but I feel like I'm just in a daze.
That feeling of being underwater where everything's muffled and you feel weight on you and stuck.
I need a nap.
