All back to normal it seems.
And yet, I feel so selfish.
I want all of your attention like I got while you were here.
I hate waiting for you to text me back, its so selfish I know.
I feel horrible too because you've been away from your games and stuff from quite awhile...but I just want attention.
I think that's why I felt so upset.
I knew it'd go back to me being selfish and wanting your attention all the time and you wanting to be with friends. And play your games.
And I'm not trying to accuse or be bitchy or anything..
Its just a very different change.
From us being together 24/7 and now you texting every so often.
And calling later at night.
I sorta feel like a horrible girlfriend...because I sorta hate League for the fact you put so much time and effort into it...xD;
I'm trying to get into it so I can hopefully spend more time with you.
But my goddamn computer pisses me off and that piece of s**t mouse /rage.
I just miss you a lot I guess.
I keep getting little pangs of pain in my heart.
I don't feel comfortable coming out right and saying "Hey give me attention."
Because you just gave me a week of attention.
I just feel a little cut off from you is all.
I can't have your attention all the time right..?
Right.
I feel insecure even though I know we'll be fine...
Because we're strong, right?
And you've shown a lot of dedication.
More than you ever have..
And I feel very very strongly for you. To the point where I see myself being with your for the rest of my life.
I'm just lonely.
And yet, I feel so selfish.
I want all of your attention like I got while you were here.
I hate waiting for you to text me back, its so selfish I know.
I feel horrible too because you've been away from your games and stuff from quite awhile...but I just want attention.
I think that's why I felt so upset.
I knew it'd go back to me being selfish and wanting your attention all the time and you wanting to be with friends. And play your games.
And I'm not trying to accuse or be bitchy or anything..
Its just a very different change.
From us being together 24/7 and now you texting every so often.
And calling later at night.
I sorta feel like a horrible girlfriend...because I sorta hate League for the fact you put so much time and effort into it...xD;
I'm trying to get into it so I can hopefully spend more time with you.
But my goddamn computer pisses me off and that piece of s**t mouse /rage.
I just miss you a lot I guess.
I keep getting little pangs of pain in my heart.
I don't feel comfortable coming out right and saying "Hey give me attention."
Because you just gave me a week of attention.
I just feel a little cut off from you is all.
I can't have your attention all the time right..?
Right.
I feel insecure even though I know we'll be fine...
Because we're strong, right?
And you've shown a lot of dedication.
More than you ever have..
And I feel very very strongly for you. To the point where I see myself being with your for the rest of my life.
I'm just lonely.
