How could I have done this to him? Why did I do this?
Stress... Suffocation... Clinginess... Feeling tied down... Never being able to go anywhere unless he came with me... not even to a gay friend's house...
Despite the above selfish reasons, I still feel absolutely horrible about the break-up. And right before 4th period. I've already had 2 calls so far... going on 3 to make myself not cry as much. I feel so bad about this, because I still care... I want him to be happy... but I need my happiness... I just needed this. I don't know what my future has in store for me... whether I've made the right decision or not... Today felt kinda ok thinking of being single.. but when Joe came up to me... I felt like the most wretched b***h in the entire universe.
I hope things end up ok... and he's still my friend...
haloisbymyhorns · Wed Nov 15, 2006 @ 10:16pm · 0 Comments |