Well Dad, thanks, but no thanks.
I'm still absolutely miserable and I've been doing my best to do what he said... with the exception of last night... because I pretty much had to laugh after a while of it. (flatulants are evil) I'm still miserable, though. After eating, all we did was play vidergames, get mad at each other, eat more pie, or say nothing at all to each other. Is this a relationship? NO! It's pergatory!
I've been dying to call Chris ever since that message he gave me... I'm thinking of running away to VA... but who would take me? and I'd have to make myself look different or have a false identity for almost anything I did because my parents would be looking for me. I don't care about that as much as I care about Chris... All this time and one guy after another, this has happened to. I don't remember one time in Chris and I's relationship ever getting that mad or that silent unless I was zoning or it was after I started going to school here. I want to be with him so bad... but he'd never want to take me back after my parents made me re-try going out with Joe. Too bad that plan failed for them... If anything I want to dump his a** right now. Yes, I'd feel bad about it... just like the first time... but it'd be so much nicer than the constant misery that is Joe + Emily.
And if Chris doesn't want me back... I'll be lesbian.. or at least call myself one to ward off guys, but I'd never do anything with girls. I don't think I could either... I just want to be HIS girl, or no one's girl.
God I hope he talks to me... please let him talk to me... it's all I want.
 haloisbymyhorns · Fri Nov 24, 2006 @ 01:51pm · 0 Comments |
