Well...he read my journal and now I guess it's for real. I am uber b***h... queen of irrational reason and arrogant tone. To bad I havn't mastered how to live right.
I feel bad about this... but everyone is telling me that my happiness is much more important. I want Joe to be happy to... and I don't want him to hurt himself... but I'm not staying in this relationship just to keep him safe if the majority of our time drives me nuts. Yes, we did still have really fun times together... but I know in my heart that I couldn't keep it up.
I want to shoot myself right now. And Joe shouldn't be driving if he's feeling like he's going to cry that bad. His eyes would be too watery to see the roads right and then he'd get in a wreck... and he could die... which would be all my fault... because I dumped him... and then I'd carry this burdon forever.
Oh God... just smack me. I need to do it. It's for the best... right?
 haloisbymyhorns · Sat Nov 25, 2006 @ 02:13pm · 0 Comments |
