Ok... so today I kissed him again. First I must explain...
When I leave the house, leaving for school or anything I tell my parents goodbye, out of reflex I kiss them say "Love you" and then leave. (GOD I"M AN IDIOT!) Well when I gave him a kiss I accidently told him I love him, *hits self on head* I'm not ready to say that! He was surprised himself, I could tell. *sigh* What to do... what to do.... I think I'll just end up telling him what happened. I don't think I'm ready for the whole "I love you" thing. It's a huge step. Well for me. Wonder if he'll understand. Let's hope. Well I've got a LOT of homework so I'm gonna leave it as it is. Oh yeah, So the two friends who were fighting, pretty much aren't friends now. (Doubt it will last long but we'll see)
Dad is doing his usual, quiet, don't talk to me unless it is important mood right now. I told him that I had alot of money to save. Because I'm saving for cosplay, and for two birthdays and a lot of other things. He asked why everyone else gets things but he doesn't. He refers to Father's Day when we didn't get to see him and we didn't get anything. I didn't think to make him a card and I didn't have any money to get him something (Plus he wouldn't allow it!) He says he just wanted a card. I feel so horrible. When he's in this mood I know that he's upset and I know that it's because of me. I hate it when he feels this way. When I get the feeling that he is feeling right now. It's horrible and isn't good. There isn't anything I can do about it. Though I may make him a belated card (REALLY belated) Just so he knows I care. God I feel horrible. Well anyway that's my life right now....
From the little girl who cried wolf
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