• I don't think I ever wanted to say 'I love you' more than at that moment. But I was held in tight by my wheelchair, and my lips could only form the child-like gurgle my voice now knew. She looked over at me, she was always by my side, and smiled. She had such a pretty smile, one that was always there when I wanted it to be. She kissed me forehead and nodded, telling me that she knew. She, Kali, was the only one that could understand my babble. Maybe it was because of the tight bond we had, she was everything I ever wanted, she was my lover. I say was, and by that I mean before the accident, before the train wreck that left me paralyzed from the chest down, and my brain damaged enough to leave me speechless. I sighed, and she took my hand, whispering softly sweet nothings into my ear, she knew it made me happy to hear her voice. I could feel it coming, another seizure. It wracked hard through my body, it was worse, much worse, than the first had been. Somehow I knew, I knew that I was going to die here, that this was going to kill me. I tried to fight the blackness that was clouding my vision. Dimly, I could see Kali talking rapidly into her phone, shooting scared glances at me, I guess she realized that I was leaving her too. I opened my mouth to try and talk, to say goodbye, and that I loved her. Nothing came out. I could feel the words on my tongue, I was choking on them. I managed to say her name. The first real word I had spoken since the crash, and the last. She let out a sob, one that I never heard, and ran over to my now lifeless body. Tears stained my shirt. I watched all this from above her, I was floating, a ghost, passing on to the next life. I swooped down and passed an opaque hand over her bent head, invisible tears slipping down my own cheeks as I whispered sweet words, and silent goodbyes.