• There is no need for love; tonight I have learned how pointless it really is. You cannot rely on it, nor can you rely on the person you have set yourself up to be with for the rest of your life. Everything is wonderful, the feeling of being with someone who loves you, and who is willing to give up everything for you... but in the end, will they really sacrifice something for you? Or is that, like love, a lie too?

    As I sit here in bed, tears going down my cheeks, I will contemplate this, wonder where I went wrong, believing in such an emotion as this. Everyone who feels this emotion never really feels happy, they only put on the show, for others to see. In the inside, the two cannot say that they would truthfully love each other always, and that they are willing to sacrifice anything for the other.

    I should have not been stupid enough to think that he would give up something for me, that he would choose me over the job. That just shows how much I still need to learn, and how much I really matter.

    All that matters is, is that the person you love is happy, and realizing that they will not be happy unless they get their on way. They will NOT sacrifice their happiness for your own, and they will put on a show, perhaps say a few words to make you believe them, when in the end they'll just take it all away.

    I have fallen for this trick, and I will not allow it to happen again.