• Love and Sorrow
    By:Tabatha Barnett

    Prolouge

    Dear Diary,

    My day sucked! We got a new boy in
    class today! His name is...umm...crap
    I can't remember his name! ...Oh yeah
    it was Damien Night! Well anyways,
    he is totally the hottest guy in the en-
    tire school, but he is also smart, and funny.
    I know this from sitting by the boys(which is
    some thing I try to avoid doing, because I
    hate most of them and the ones I don't hate
    I'm too embarrassed to sit by) the other thing is,
    well he kept staring at me, and I don't know
    if he likes me or what! But, that's about
    it for today, so Good Night!


    July 15, 2009
    Jordan Hillcocks

    Chapter 1 as they first met

    "Here's the deal Jordan is, well off limits. There's a lot of tough guys waiting for her to say yes to them, if they've even asked her yet. So Damien, I wouldn't waste my time even asking, if I were you." I heard one of the guys in my class saying to the hot new kid.
    "Well it's a good thing you aren't me, because where I come from we don't back down just because some tough guys are in our way, we do what we have to get to what we want. Plus, she's hot!"OH MY GOD! Did the hottest boy in the school just say I was hot?!
    "Oh, hey Jordan! What's up? Hey, you okay, you're face is blood red?"
    "Huh... Uhh, yeah I'm fine. Hey, who wants to ask me out?"Yeah, I heard it all. "And thanks Jacob!" Whoa that was close but he made me blush so it's his turn.
    Wait, he didn't blush like Erik did! What the heck happened, how did that back fire on me? "Oh, and I think that is a very good moral to live by. Hey, haha Erik maybe you could learn something from him. Like to shut up when you see me, because you were just setting him up for that and you knew you were too. Stupid. Sorry for him he's just a retard that doesn't know when to shut up. Really I am sorry, I try to keep a better hold on him but what can I do."
    Damien just looked at me after I said that, then he said something I didn't expect. "What do you mean try to keep him under control, are ya'll goin' out or somethin'? If you two aren't, then maybe we could this saterday?" Then he smiled an amazing, breathtaking, crooked smile! It made me blush so bad I could feel my face getting hot! Shoot he did it again!
    "S-S-Sure I-I'd love t-to th-th-thanks." Crap I'm studdering, when have I ever done that?!? And all he said was, "Cool pick you up at eight, okay?"
    "Y-Y-Yeah that's fine." I'm such a redard, but on the upper hand I know he likes me and we're goin' out on saterday! "Hey I am NOT a retard! Jordan what do you mean you'll go out with him and not me?!?" Wow I almost forgot that Erik asked me out. Haha. Poor Erik, he is so cute in a lost puppy kind of way, it's sad really.Those retarted barbies turned him down just 'cause he's not rich like they are. Spoiled little brats every single one of them!
    "Uhh... I'm sorry Erik I guess it slipped my mind that you asked me out two weeks ago and I said that I'd think about it, right." That wasn't really a question but I'm sure he'll say something anyways. "Uhh...yes, but ...ummm... I'm sorry Jordan, you too Erik. I guess I blew my top, really truely I am sorry. You see ,Jacob, that's why I said that she was off limits becaues she hadn't said yes or no to me yet, so I was hoping you'd wait 'til you thought everything was clear to ask her or until she at least said no to me first, but dude I'm glad you got lucky with her. You better treat he right or else Paul Hillcocks will kill you. He's real protective of his little sister!"
    "Yeah yeah, whatever about my big brother, he's just a big bully, really I'm tired of him being so protective of me it's annoying, frankly." Then I saw them, those fangs. I'm usually very observant. I really should have been paying more attention. But I can't really beat myself up for not paying that much attention before, I mean any sane or straight girl wouldn't be paying attention to his teeth just his face and body, but I didn't even get to his body yet. He's not too muscular but not too scrouny, he also has strong hands and a firm grip. He just hugged me! Oh my god everyone is staring at us! C'mon Mr.Tanner hurry up and come to class already! Then the final bell rang and late as usaul Mr.Tanner shows up, stupid biology why'd my mom make me take it. Oh crap, what's he doing?!
    "Okay class we're blood typing, so clear you're desk. Oh and we seem to have a new student with us, Damien Night meet the class! You can just go sit by Jordan. Jordan if he needs help you know what to do, right?" What no c'mon Mr.Tanner, what are you doing? And all I said was, "Yeah, sure I'll help him, no problem." Yeah just perfect, I get humilated by him asking me out and now we're lab partners.
    Most horrible week of my life.
    Chapter 2 the dreaded date
    Crap it's saterday, what am I going to wear, oh yeah! "Hey, sis can you come and help me for a minute?" Sure anough there she was holding a new bag of clothes she'd bought the day before, just for this date. If it wasn't for the fact that I was younger than her, but bigger some how, we could be twins.But she's in collage and I'm in the eleventh grade.
    I ended up wearing a jean mini-skirt, and a lace shirt I had just bought two weeks ago but never had a reason to wear it, and some stupid baby doll shoes my sister gave me last year. To me I looked like an idiot, but my sister has more dating experience that I do, so who cares really. Crap, I don't even know where we're gonig, if it'll be cold or not! Then I heard it.
    "I got it!" I said, so that my dad wouldn't get the door first.
    "Hey, Damien! What's up?" I'm such a retard. "Hey, Jordan! Nothing much, you ready to go? Oh wait I have to meet your parents, right?" He looked around. Thank god my mom was still at work and my dad was asleep on the couch.
    "Well, will you settle for my older sister Daina? There she is. Daina, can you come here for a minute?"
    "Uh...yeah what's up? Oh yeah I'm the adult for the night, hi I'm Daina, Jordan's older sister. How are you?"
    "Hey, the punk that wants to date Jordan is here, cool!" Called my stupid, annoying, over-protective older brother from upstairs. Sometimes I wish his mouth was sewed shut. "Shut the heck up, Paul!" Wow he's a retard.
    "No it's okay Jordan I can see why he's calling me a punk.He's just trying to protect you and I am greatful he doesn't trust me right away like some of your friends at school did when I asked you, it's very smart of him not to trust someone from where I come from." Oh, well I thought he was different then the others, sigh.
    “Uh.... okay. Let's go! By the way you never told me where we're goin', so where are we going, anyways?" I was wondering but he said it was a surprise so I bet he's not going to tell me, so what's the point in even asking? "Well I guess can't tell you yet, not until we get there, right?"
    Knock, knock. "Oh, crap!" Of course I jumped at the sound of someone knocking on the door, but thankfully my loving sister Daina covered for me, though. Ugh. "I got it!" Just then is when Pual came down stairs, and Damien had to look down on him! How in the world did anyone taller than my idiot brother like me? I'll never know, I guess, ugh.
    "Hey Erik, what are you doing here? You know I'm about to leave now, right?" Oh my god, he just looked so lost-puppy-like just now!
    "Yeah I know your 'bout to leave, I just wanted to do this first, just so you can have it in your head while you’re out with Edward!" Then he did it. The one thing that Erik has never had the guts to do and he did it, he just kissed me right then and there.
    "Uh...thanks I think. Uh, Damien I think we should go, NOW!" Yeah if I wasn't pissed a minute ago, now I am. "Yeah me too." He looked if not as pissed as me, more pissed than I felt. "Ugh... sorry Jordan I just couldn't stand it anymore. I had to do it sooner or later, but I perfered sooner rather than later." Ohh that boy pisses me off so much now!
    "Well I'm glad you had fun, I on the other hand did not and have a date to go on so. Good bye, Erik. See you later Daina, Paul, love yah." I called over my shoulder at them as practically draged Damien away from Erik and the house of witnesses, if something were to happen to Erik. Heehee I wonder what Damien would have done to him if I hadn't of pulled him away.
    "Are you okay, Jordan?" When we were out off hearing range of the people inside the house but not yet far enough away that I couldn't see Erik staring at me like I had just turned into a monster or something along those lines. Damien scared me by asking something. Yes, I jumped and that scared him too. "Uh yah I'm fine, you"
    He just stood there looking at me like I was crazy and, then he laughed. "Me, why are you worried about me?" He thinks it's funny? "I don't know why you think it's so funny that I'm worried about you. Jacob, I had to almost pull you out of the house, just now, and you looked even more pissed than I felt. Damien, are you truely okay and don't just laugh again, please"
    "Jordan, yes I was pissed, but I'm more worried about you to even think about myself, but just to make you happy, no I'm not okay. Do you mind if I called you a little nickname I picked up from my older sister's boyfriend?" Oh god what another little nickname. "Uh...sure. What is this 'little nickname' you want to call me?"
    "Well I know this is our first date, but I don't know. Maybe like 'love', or 'baby', or something?" Awl he wants to call me 'love' or 'baby'! "Well I like the 'love' one but it's up to you what you want to call me. Mind if I call you something to, just to get back at you for calling me something, huh?" Haha he's gonna get it! "Uh... sure you can try to get back at me but I'm vaugely sure you wouldn't even phase me. So, since you like 'love' then that's your new nickname for me. So, what are you going to call me?"
    "Um... how 'bout softy, huh?" All I could do was laughed at his experession. He just laughed a little but it sounded a little strained, like I had accually hit a nerve, but why did he get so rigid when I said that? "Hey, Damien what's wrong? If it's the name I won't really call you-" Now I know why he was so rigid. "Erik what are you doing here?! Get lost!!"
    "No Jordan I won't 'get lost' I'm staying right here!" What's up with him lately? Ever since Damien got here Erik has been acting all weird. "Well if you are going to stay here, then I guess me and Jake should go to where ever he's got planed to go, so for the last time tonight. Good bye, Erik!" Yes I know that was mean but he has been up my butt all week and it's getting on my last nerve. "Uh... Jordan?"
    "Yes, Damien? What is it?" Oh thank god here is his car, I think. As if he could hear my thoughts he said, "Here's my car, let me help you in, okay." then he whispered in my ear so that Erik couldn't hear him, "Don't worry we'll be away from him soon enough, okay, love." And with the same little crooked smile he made the first day we met he called me his 'little nickname', and yes I loved hearing him call me 'love' like I was a princess from a fairy tale book
    "Okay, uh I know you might not have exactly chosen the name I picked but, I was just kiding. I'm not really going to call you that, 'kay." Was all I could whisper back to him, and he laughed like I was being funny, again, ugh. "No no, the name is perfect, it sort of does fit me this past week doesn't it? That shows I've been to easy on you, but trust me you will have to work up to me bringing you here tonight, love, as you know I got to explore a little over the weekend before I started school and I happened to find this little place that's just perfect for you and I'll even show you a little shortcut to get to it, as well. Love, I think you've forgot how to breathe. Jordan are you okay, you look like you've just seen a vampire or a ghost, what's wrong, did I say something wrong? Jordan really your scaring me breathe, PLEASE" That time he acaully pulled over, got of the car and was on the passenger side holding me in his stong arms before I could even open my mouth to talk so all I said was, "I+t's okay. You didn't say anything wrong. It's just I thought I saw something or someone out there following us that's all, but don't get all worried, it's probably just the fack that your really the guy only I've dated that acaully intimidated my brother so I'm probably just being paranoid, that's all, I guess. Sorry for scaring you." So to make up for it I kissed him on the cheek and he acaully seemed to relax his grip that was surprisingly still around my waist.
    "Okay, uh... just don't do that to me again okay? I'm sorry if I hurt you when I... uh... grabed you like that. Oh and we can't drive anymore, but since you got scared by something that might be out there then we could go somewhere else if you want, it's up to you." Yes, I finally got him to blush!
    "We can still go to you're place, if that's okay? You really did a good job on making me curiuos on where you were planing on taking me, but if you don't feel up to it I know somewhere we can go instead." I am such a retard, he probably doesn't want to go anywhere with me now that I said I was paranoid. "No my place is fine, but are you sure you're feeling okay? You know you are still bleach white, and you are a little rigid, and you probably want me to let go of you, right?"
    "No! Ugh I mean no it's fine that you are still hugging me, but I don't know why I'm still rigid and so pale. And I'm fine to go to you're place, I think it'll be fun, plus it's probably somewhere I've never been, and I lived here my entire live, so it'll most likely be cool." Oh crap I forgot something! "Thanks for careing about me enough to stop the car and hug me. And you didn't hurt me when you hugged me either, so don't worry so much, okay! Oh what'd you say about not being able to drive anymore? I'm sorry I wasn't really paying that much attention."
    "Well, I'm glad I didn't hurt you, and I wouldn't exactly called this hugging you, I'd call it grabbing you, and I'm surprised it's not uncomfortable for you to be in a sittuation like the one, that I've so rudely put you in. Oh and the place I wanted to show you is just up ahead. It's maybe five minutes away, it won't take long at all, really." Okay he's so hot! So, that and the fact that he still hasn't let go of me is the reason why I wasn't paying attention earlier, I'm sorry, I couldn't help myself, I had to just sit here staring at him like a complete, and utter moron.
    "Okay, whatever you say. Let's go. My brother does this all the time, well actually only when I come home from being on a date but still I'm used to it." So I hopped out of the car and waited for him to realize that I was actually going to go into the forest with him, even though I still had that creepy feeling that someone was watching us, and that he still looked a little flushed from me kissing his cheek a few minutes ago.
    "Okay let me lock up the car and then we can go, okay? Hey, thanks." Oh what did I do that made him say thanks? "For what? The kiss or letting you take me in the forest?"
    Please tell me it's for the forest and not my little-five-year-old-girl moment when i kissed him. "Both. Even though I'm surprised you kissed me." Okay not what I was hoping for but it'll do, so after he was done with the car we were off. With his arm around my waist and mine around his, you'd think we'd been going out for year and not just been on our first date, the first of many I hope!
    "Well, you're welcome. Are you sure you're okay?" Great I'm being repetative. I won't mention the fact that the way we were walikng was kind of funny considering the anology I came up with for it, but he could mostlikely tell that I was thinking about it 'cause he moved his arm causing me to jump and jerk my arm back, shoot what did I do wrong this time?
    "I'm sorry, did I do something wrong again?" Was all I could ask.
    "No Jordan you didn't do anything wrong, you haven't all night. I just thought you were getting cold, with that ... err... outfit on you must have been, so here wear this it'll keep you warm. Oh, and we're here!" He gave me his leather jacket and the fact that he was only wearing a tank-top sort of worried me, I mean he's worried that I'd been getting cold, (which I didn't realize I was a little chilly until he let go of me) and he's wearing something like that scared me, but what scared me even more was the little open meadow with a little cottage right in the middle of it. Once again it was like a fairy tale story!
    "Oh, but what if you get cold? And thanks." Oh great, just great I'm the one being overly worried about him, and not the other way around like it should be. "Trust me I won't get cold plus we're about to go inside, so you shouldn't worry about me to much, okay, love." Okay he was so hot when he called me that that I think he could get away with anything as far as I'm concerned and as long as he keeps calling me that! Oh great, I don't even know what we're doing in that cute little cottage.
    As we walked in I asked, "So what are we goin' to do? Oh and this place is perfect, so beautiful!" Once again I could feel my face getting all hot. "Uh... thanks, but it's not as beutiful as you are tonight, how come you don't wear stuff like that to school? I mean not that you don't look good in school, too." Awl, something is extremly wrong with the fact that he is so cute, cool, AND he likes someone like me.
    "Uh... well I don't go to school like this because some of the guys are such perverts like my stupid over-protective brother is with every girl but me and Daina, so don't worry 'bout him, I mean he rarely ever kisses my mom much less me or Daina. But, I'm not saying that I think your a prevert like the rest of the guys at school, no, no way would I ever think that about someone like you!"
    "Haha, okay okay! So we were just gonna hang out here for a while, if that's okay with you?" He so needs to stop worrying about me. "No, it's fine by me. So how'd you find this place?" But being the nice little junior I am, I didn't say anything. "Okay, well you can sit if you want. Here let me hang up my jacket and get something to drinck, do you want anything?"
    "Uh... any non diet brown pop, if that's okay?"