• I saw my mother die
    Why didnt she survive?
    It was all my fault
    I shouldnt have acted like a dolt
    Thinking i hated her
    I did love her
    I was cruel
    never thought i needed her rules
    I acted like a fool
    I ignored her on her deathbed, ignored her when she was so utterly sick
    Never said i love you nor gave a thought of her
    I DIDNT EVEN GIVE A DANM!
    Never thought i'd care
    Of course i found out i did
    On her funeral
    You couldnt possibly understand how guilty i felt,
    Not at all
    THIS ISNT FAIR!
    WHY DID SHE HAVE TO DIE?!
    WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!
    I MISS HER STILL
    I MISS HER SO!!!
    I am scared, alone, jaded, cruel, pathetic, and unlovable.
    Can you try to understand?
    Can you try to be me, and understand?
    Will you try to look through my own eyes?
    And will you hate me for being this weak little girl?