• Lately I've been thinking about how much he really cares about me...i feel like he doesn't really care. Maybe I expect too much...I'm selfish.
    Brandi called me the other night crying because she had asked why Matthew had broken up with her and she told me why...it's becaue he found some other girl that was more "convenient" and less selfish and talkative and violent than Brandi.
    Everything is so out of place...and I wish I could just re-build everything and put the pieces together...either there's too many pieces or I'm that blind to the answer.
    Brandi was telling me about when her and Matthew was together...that he called her every night, told her how much she loved her everyday, and how pretty she was...While she was listing all these things he does for her, i just couldn't help thinking, although briefly, but long enough for it to torture my mind, Taylor doesn't do that...