• In the beginning I seen a picture of her posted on facebook. It was January 21st 2012. I gave her a compliment with a pickup line in the comment it said I didn't know angels fell from heaven. Ten minutes later she starts talking to me telling me what goes on in her life, it was so sad I cried. We continued talking and The twenty-third of January in 2012. We decided to be boyfriend and girlfriend. The first two weeks was great but she couldn't stop doing drugs. How it began she would get high I would get high, it would be a battle like that backwards and forwards. We was so mean to each other during the period of the first five months. Then in May I decided to talk to fifteen girls on facebook because she was so mean to me. I wanted to run away from her I felt so bad. But I dropped those evil ways after a short time, then decided i'd be a better person. The war between me and her kept continuing everyday. Then she decides she wants to get on my facebook. For all the times that she hurt me with her mean words and actions. I didn't care at all to give her the password to my facebook. She gets on and seen everything that I have done. Then for the next two months after she seen that she gave me pure hell over it. We would come see each other at horse shows in our area. I cried to her about what I done on facebook, that war was finally over. there is times that we do really well with each other, but everyday there is anger, fear, and all kinds of negative emotions, happiness occurs everyday but not much. Many times in the beginning she has broken up with me over getting high on weed because I was addicted. She also broke up with me for a week for the facebook incident. Not once did I leave her over her drugs I just kept talking to her like a Sargent to get her to quit. Well we did quit together, but there would be times we'd still drink some alcohol and get drunk, or I would decide to go smoke some weed ,smoke some shrooms. So then she would get high because I did, on her drugs. One day I decided to smoke some legal weed with my sister because she wanted me to there was some girl hanging out with my sister as well. We just decided to get really high with each other smoking weed legal weed and taking cough and cold pills to get high. My lady calls me during the process and could tell I was high by the way that my voice sounded. She says she is going to get high on her drugs I told her to do it the fun way but instead she decides to take many pills and she overdoses then is in the hospital getting her stomach pumped. We mended everything back together once again. I forgot to mention that she went to juvie shortly after the facebook incident. That is how she realized that she loved me. Later on we finally decided to stop all of that weed and drugs. But we would still drink a little sometimes it created problems still yet. Sometimes about the drinking we wouldn't care if one of us did it or not we stayed cool about it. just depending on how much was drunk and how the person acted while they was doing it. The good times are so amazing but the bad times is chaos. More chaos than what there should be good. Later on it was December 23rd 2012 I bought her a ring and proposed to her at my aunt's and uncle's house while they was celebrating christmas. We done really good with each other after that but we'd still yet fight just not as strongly we stayed clean no alcohol or anything for a good period of time. But my birthday I decided to get drunk then she got mad because I wouldn't let her do anything on her birthday. The day before her birthday I got high on weed. She breaks up with me until her birthday it was a really sad day for her because I was a jackass. March 24th I decided to get baptized I was living the christian life. Where I was a christian and she wasn't it made everything difficult she would still bring up how I was in my past it would make me so mad. We would argue a lot and I'd get so mad to the point I would still tell her G.D. You to hell. I'd have to pray for forgiveness many times I cried to the lord. I continued reading the bible and going to church every sunday. I got to the point where no matter how mad I would get the G.D. word never would slip out of my mouth. I learned a lot from the bible I still follow a lot of the bible laws. But I am no longer a christian. What caused that was over a month later she got drunk at her friends house. I was broke up with her Because I would get so mad at her I told her it was over on and off we would get back together. We was working on everything trying to pull us back together and ensure that we'd never break up again. While she was at her friends house and got drunk she ended up kissing a boy then telling me about it later on that day on Facebook. I really wanted to talk to her. My nerves got tore up really bad and I was sick in my stomach for the rest of the day. Then later on when that day turned into night she was playing hide and seek. then ended up having sex with the boy. I still talked to her for a week or two but argued with her about it. Then finally decided to break up with her for a month I drunk myself silly to the point i'd have alcohol poison, i'd almost die from smoking legal weed I caused complete destruction on myself. I blame the devil for what happened to me and it makes me refuse to go back to church and live a christian life the way I once did. Because I fear the devil will have another trick up his sleeve to destroy me. The only way I will go back to the lord to the church to the bible and back to god. Is if she will do the same and live the christian life with me. Still to this day we fight, love, cherish, argue, fear, and get angry with each other. We just don't want to be without each other even though we sometimes tell each other to leave. The reason why the future is such a mess with me and her is because of our past that we shared the betrayal cheating and the lies that we done to each other. The drugs, alcohol, and all of that stuff. After I woke up that morning in need of a beer I decided I will not drink again. But still I don't step back into that church even though the preacher wants me to he says he and all of them miss me but I just don't go, in fear that something bad will happen to me. Even without god I fear that the worst between me and her is going to happen. I want to fix it all with her and make it all better. The fear, anger, and all the negative emotions. There is too much of it and I wished it could all change.