• Ten Years Taken From Six

    In this day I lie awake
    seeing the world pass me too quick to grasp
    I reach up to try and take hold
    but someone
    something
    snags my wrist and pulls me away
    I am 14 now
    W-were has my life gone so quick
    I stretch my arms and feel larger muscles bulge
    I look in the mirror and see a unfamiliar face
    his hair
    his eyes
    his buck toothed grin
    gone
    gone like a candle in high wind
    now i see hands bigger than before
    as they trace this stranger's face
    Adam?
    Were has Adam gone?
    this is not him
    no it can't be
    I lie back down in my bed
    close my eyes for just a second
    and life seems to pass me again
    Age?
    How old am I?
    I look down and see a slimmer arm
    in it there are words carved
    for I fear a heart's goodbye
    my eyes widen as the red letters begin to bleed painlessly
    I look up as I hear a sob
    a dark shadow looms over me
    now I am blind
    I wake to the sound of tears
    my mother's
    my sisters'
    my uncles
    cousins, aunts, and grandparents
    I look around and see everyone dressed up nice
    I see something else
    something dark
    a coffin
    father?
    Father?
    Were are you?
    a cold wind blows as I come to grips
    father...
    father is dead
    I feel tears fall
    but I am not that sad
    they obscure my vision
    blurr my mind
    I am washed away in a painless sea
    a huff escapes my lips
    I feel someone warm in my lap
    who
    what
    were
    I look down and see an angel
    she smiles at me and looks back to the TV
    could it
    no it can't
    but is it
    her eyes a shade of green
    no blue
    no hazel
    I can't tell
    I look to my arm and it seems larger now
    stronger
    but no words are etched with in
    a content sigh escapes my lips as I palm my face
    I remove it as I feel a vice grip my lungs
    breathe
    can't breathe
    were is air
    a kind looking white haired man holds my shoulder
    I hear him speak a prayer
    the vice is lifted as I look back
    I hear tears again
    who
    no
    hiss
    mother?
    mother?
    Were is my mother?
    I scan the crowd and let the vice lift completely
    my mother is there
    tears in her eyes
    but she is there
    a spark hits my spine as I think again
    Crys?
    Crystal?
    were is my sister?
    damn him
    curse him
    that lowly man
    has he?
    no
    the spark dissipates as I see her there too
    less teary
    but there
    aunts, uncles, cousins all there
    Grandma
    a calm wind says
    no tears
    not this time
    people begin to shuffle into their cars and I follow suit
    I sit down on the seat and a rush runs over me
    I see
    I see an angel
    My Monkey in a beautiful dress
    no
    No
    NO
    this isn't
    this can't
    she's too young
    Adam is his name
    West you fink
    you fooled a innocent girl into marriage
    I feel a pit begin to form in my stomache
    pain?
    no I feel no tears
    I feel no pain
    empty
    I don't care anymore
    heh...I'm done
    my heart sinks as I turn away
    I see a dark room
    a cold breeze eminates form within
    a girl stands before me
    a bronzed goddess
    her lips move
    but I hear no words
    I feel my feet sway beneath me
    a dagger
    a dagger in my heart
    tears choke my throat
    Gia...
    n-no
    not Gia
    not now
    we still had something
    this can't
    this can't be real
    not the raven haired doll
    he took her innocence
    he took her love
    he took her gentle soul
    he took it and gave her a knife
    he gave her a rope
    her gave her pills
    now she lays in a ditch
    her favorite drink surrounds her
    I feel it flow through my palms
    I feel tears blur my vision
    a roar rips my throat
    a crack
    the sound of shattered bone
    Enough Kitty
    Enough
    a voice speaks from my right
    I glance there
    my teeth clenched
    a demoness
    a dark queen
    Valentine
    she towers over me
    a cough sounds from my left
    something hot splatters my face
    i look there
    I feel a hiss escape my lips
    a worm
    a spineless rodent
    Michael
    I grip my head as the voices come
    Zachariah
    Christopher
    Walter, Matt, Hideo
    names
    these names are not me
    Leo...
    LEO
    a voice whisper breathlessly
    I feel my arms grip a wild fire
    I feel my fangs pressing against skin
    I puppet
    a pale marionette
    dancing in hands of sin
    I feel a warm trickle on my cheek
    I press my hand there
    red
    my hand stained red
    how did this
    when did this
    what did she do to me
    I feel the red hand press against my eyes
    all is red
    a tug
    a tug on my collar
    Don't run away
    No running away now kay?
    I look down
    words
    words are all I see
    but human
    human emotion I feel
    Never Mademoiselle
    I don't see age, I see you
    I lie
    I see a halo too
    the wings aren't there
    but see her
    I see an angel
    unaware of her perfection
    someone very special
    someone very rare
    20
    My age as of today
    this boy that stands before you is no longer that of which he was at 14
    this boy has learned through his ages
    he is awake now
    fully conscious of who he is
    who he was
    and who he wants to be
    talk to him
    burn him
    save him
    do what you must
    Teal?
    Grey?
    Words are just words
    easily thrown away
    and labels are just a way to simplify
    to complicate
    call him what ever you must
    he is someone you haven't seen before
    he is that shadow that follows your every word
    he does not stalk
    he only listens
    a strange boy hiding under a strange mask
    watching
    waiting
    but hoping you won't fall
    but he will be there
    to try to catch
    to soften the blow
    to mend the wounds if he can
    Si no adres de amor, muchos moriron de frio
    If you do not burn with love, then many will die of cold