xX. Alas, I've been hit with the emo stick.
Well my friends, I've been hit with the unfavoured stick. Lately I've been feeling down or angry, and I don't really know why. I know a couple reasons may be that I can't see my beloved Benny for another month at least, and it's not really fun, since we don't talk very much since we both have school and such, and he can't called long distance. I know another reason is because my dearest friend is upset because a turn of events that he does not favour, and is being a tad difficult about the matter. I do indeed love him dearly as my friend and worry about him most of the time cause he's done so much for me throughout the years I just feel so in debt to him. And the last reason, my ex, he's been calling me and speaking with me lately, though he did just move to Ontario, he takes the hardcore long distance fees and talking with me over the phone. At times I miss him, but I thought about it before he had moved, before I got together with my sweet Benny, but I was never really sure because of his past dating rep, so I hadn't wanted to take the risk. And a few other minor things as well have been on my mind, but that's my body being ridiculous and I wouldn't act on it anyhow.
What really has me bothered is my friend, he's so distraught and sad and doing silly things to make him feel better, I feel as if it's all my fault even though he handed me he short-end of the stick in previous times, though I've forgiven him and moved on from it. I do feel a tad awful though, cause I'm trying so hard to hold on to our crumbling friendship and it seems to be failing as the walls fall around me entrapping me within this prison.
A prison of dishonest, distrusting, feverish dreams. .Xx
Well my friends, I've been hit with the unfavoured stick. Lately I've been feeling down or angry, and I don't really know why. I know a couple reasons may be that I can't see my beloved Benny for another month at least, and it's not really fun, since we don't talk very much since we both have school and such, and he can't called long distance. I know another reason is because my dearest friend is upset because a turn of events that he does not favour, and is being a tad difficult about the matter. I do indeed love him dearly as my friend and worry about him most of the time cause he's done so much for me throughout the years I just feel so in debt to him. And the last reason, my ex, he's been calling me and speaking with me lately, though he did just move to Ontario, he takes the hardcore long distance fees and talking with me over the phone. At times I miss him, but I thought about it before he had moved, before I got together with my sweet Benny, but I was never really sure because of his past dating rep, so I hadn't wanted to take the risk. And a few other minor things as well have been on my mind, but that's my body being ridiculous and I wouldn't act on it anyhow.
What really has me bothered is my friend, he's so distraught and sad and doing silly things to make him feel better, I feel as if it's all my fault even though he handed me he short-end of the stick in previous times, though I've forgiven him and moved on from it. I do feel a tad awful though, cause I'm trying so hard to hold on to our crumbling friendship and it seems to be failing as the walls fall around me entrapping me within this prison.
A prison of dishonest, distrusting, feverish dreams. .Xx
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