Things really aren't going well.
I think I'm going to quit my job... in a way thought it's that she wants me to quit.
I've been nothing but a burden and I just don't think I'm fit to play the perfect employee for her. As much as I really would love to stay... it's just not going to work.. at least.. that's what I continue to tell myself. At this point I don't know what is right. The worst part is I pity myself... I let tears fall because of something I knew was going to happen... Honestly I'm really tired at the moment, and not really in the mood for speaking to anyone... Everytime I begin to even think about telling my parents, my eyes begin to well up because in a way it's like tell the world 'I'm a failure. I couldn't even keep my job.' I feel like I'm letting down everyone whom had faith in me... but never mind. I'm sure there isn't a whole lot of people who actually care for my pity party. So I'll stop.
This month just hasn't been the best...
I just really wish I could find TRUE happiness, and soon. Or maybe just a sancutary that I can stay at till my worries leave me for just a moment or so... I'll continue to wish for it and when I find it, trust me, I'll post it... life can't remain in the dumps forever....right?
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