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Data Log Entry #4

Loneliness...

"When someone cries...
There is someone to comfort them...
What about me?
Who is there to comfort me?
I see the world day to day...
Ever growing pain within...
The world looks at me...
And turns its back to me...
Why me?
Why not anyone else?

I see the joy in the eyes of children when looking to their family...
When I look at my family, they do not notice me for who I am..
Why is there no joy for me?
Who's going to look at me for who I am?
I see my class all day...
Ever growing loneliness within...
They look at me. And they ignore me...
What have I done?
Who have I offended?

When one is lonely...
There is someone to rid them of their loneliness...
What about me?
Who is there to rid me of my loneliness?
I wonder each day...
I make the right turns...
But I'm lost within.
When one is lost...
There is someone to find them...
What about me?
Who is the one to find me?

The loneliness grips me...
Not letting go...
Now...
I have something to say...
The loneliness is in me and can not be removed...
So if the world turns its back on me...
I'll walk away and brush it off...
If the class ignores me...
I'll walk away and be by myself....

Now that the loneliness has got to me...
I will not cry...
I will be lost...
But will find my way by myself...
I shall be like the lone-wolf...

But now I find myself wondering sometimes...
'Why me?
Why did loneliness grip me?
Why not anyone else?'."
By-Sicone