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For the longest time I've waited for something to happen and I thought that when it did happen that I'd be the happiest person alive... but now it's all been said and done.. and now I'm not sure... have I made a bad msitake? Have I said something and regretting it now? It's bad when you think this after 1 day, not even that... I'll give it time.. but I'm afraid now, I'm scaring myself and I haven't the heart to tell anyone.... I need some guidance but the more and more I look at it.. I'm not sure there are many people I can turn to.
I have a friend whom I've been friends with for almost a year.. but in a way I don't know if she thinks of me as a friend. It's not like she would think of me as anything more. DEFINATELY not. But sometimes she acts like she'd rather not be around me *sigh*
Then I have a group of friends I've been with for a long time.. but I don't know how they'd react if I told them the situation because they've changed and they aren't as caring as they use to be..
As for the last friend I've known her forever and I'd tell her, no doubt in my mind, she's like a sister, but she has her own problems so I don't want to burden her with my petty problems.
Then there is another girl whom I know and I think of her as a sister as well but there is no way in HELL that I'd say anything... at least not right now..
Parents... maybe I'd tell but then I think I'd give them the wrong idea. Guy friends? I don't know any of them who'd know what to do. Except for one but I'd have to wait to talk to him, plus it'd be a bit awkward talking to him about it... So I'm left to fend for myself, for now at least. *sigh* Why does this have to be such a problem? Sometimes I think I try to make my life hard... If this is true for this case, I really hope I stop SOON