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Mmmm.
I promised myself I wouldn't cry.
xDD
Guess that WUZ A LIE.
Oh well.
Passive.
Passive.
Naaaaaah.
Naaah.
You just bottle it up.
And then explode on people.
I could hurt you.
I think I did by leaving?
Dunno.
I really refrained from being an a** in that conversation.
I want to stay.
But not if it means all this again.
Not if it means you hurting me like you did this time.

I still don't really know what to say to you
except the word betrayal.
That's all I can think.
This was the worst pain I think.
It reminded me of Zeo.
Ha. Slander you?
Nah. I tell the truth sometime.

Pft.
I want you to need me.
I want you to make me stay.
But you won't.
You never will.
That's just how you are.

Yeah you apologized.
Sure. Whatever. Thanks for the apology.
But I want more. You know. I'm 'selfish'

I think that was the most I've ever said whatever to you since I've known you. Ha ha ha.
It was weird being so remote and distant with you.
Then I hate how you ignore things.
They DONT. Go away.
Yeah. I run away. Takes time whatever you want to say.
Takes time to heal? Yeah. But by then they don't trust you.
I shouldn't have trusted you LOL.
So this is how you burn our bridge?
So hurtful Connor.

All the other times weren't supposed to hurt me?
LMFAO.
Right. Right keep thinking that.

Burn your bridge with me.
I'll stand there and watch.
Unfortunately even if you say you want me to stay, it doesn't feel like it.
Ha.
Stress reliever.
Go back to your little f*****t buddy.

I hold grudges for a long time.
Well. I may talk to you. But I'll still hold that grudge.
I still hate how you said I was boring and ditched me that way.
Ha ha ha. Maybe I am just a boring retard ugly loser.
******** if I know.

Mmmm. What kills me most.
Is that I want to b***h you out. Let all my anger and bitchiness come out.
And then hug you.
What the ********. No.
I don't want to forgive you.
That's mostly why I'm leaving.
But I want to STAY.

I'm such a paradox sometimes aren't I? ;]


But you're such a silly boy who hides himself sometimes too.