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Why must I always make my Journals sound like the titles of Anime Episodes o_0? Hmmmm.... Me thinks I might JUST be reading/watching a bit to much manga/anime XD! Never the less, the title fits the log as I haven't had an update for anyone in about a month and (Much to my greatest and most wildest dreams and supreme happiness)I think I am not only over my Doldrums, BUT!!! I've at last discovered the love that I have always been looking for since I was a younger man... And, she has been right in front of my eyes all along O_O!

Her name is Jennifer or "Jenny" (as I and many of her friends have grown accustomed to calling her for the years we have all known one another). She is the most AMAZING woman I have ever meet (And I have known and still know a few amazing women). We've known each other for about 5 years, meet each other about 4 years ago, and she has been in love with me since day one of our meeting O_O! She confessed this to me back when we first meet, but I was too blind and stupid and insecure to see it as being ANYTHING but, a crush. However, her feelings for me have never changed and it wasn't until around March, about a month and a half after I and Emily's relationship had came to an end, that she found the courage to confess this to me again and we began talking.

It started off as her needing someone to talk to about the divorce she was starting to go through with her husband whom had been nothing but, abusive... However, before the evening ended, she confessed that she had been in love with me for all of these years and it left me at aloss for words... However, it was there that something sparked inside of me. A question of my own feelings towards this Angel whom I have known for years was raised and we began to talk as I began to do alot of soul searching. The failure of my previous relationship had me scarred emotionally, but she reached out her hand to console me and I did the same for her.

Things went on like this for the next month or two until May the 10th rolled around and I asked her if we could start dating. She said, "Yes!", and my world has not been the same since! I never could have imagined, a few years ago, just how much we really had in common... Or just how much she loves me and I, Her. I know this is love that I am feeling, but moreso then that... For the first time in my life, It's not just me loving! For the first time in my life, I honestly feel love in return and I'd dare say that she really is the one!

At long last, I whole heartedly believe I've found my Dragoness! My Sango! That one woman whom was made just for me to love and to cherish! I know it's premature to say things like this, but I feel I could spend the rest of my life with her... And I've never felt this clear or right like this before! I've never felt something like this before! This love that has practically rushed in and over me over night and has mended this Dragon's broken heart and tattered wings! I've not felt this right since the days when I and Emily were in love. However, this may very well trump those feelings in and of itself!

I've never smiled so much! I've never longed to talk to someone so much. I've never felt so much affection and warmth before! It's truely an amazing thing to be in love again and to know that, this time, You're loved back!And the news just keeps getting awesomer by the moment! So we spent Metrocon together (first time we've seen each other in a while) and it was fantastic! Btw, on the note of being really happy about things, I've lost 62 pounds since Oct. and weigh 198 lbs and have dropped from a size 40-42 to a size 34. Anyways, getting back on topic, everything was so absolutely wonderful that a decision we've been talking about since before we started dating was decided and she will be sharing an apartment with me soon!

I'm extremely excited and stoked about the prospects and the joys of being able to be with her all the time and have already cleared a place in my current residence, found her a job for when she gets down here, and am starting to seek out a place for us once my current lease is up! God knows I can't wait to be able to hold that angel in my arms and to kiss her sweet lips. I love her so much! I do! More then anything else I have ever known! More then ever before! And, I swear that I will protect both her heart and her honor and her being with every ounce of energy my mind, body, and soul can offer. I swear to God Almighty that I will not ever try to hurt her and will do nothing but, seek to love her and treat her the way that a radient woman of her calibur deserves to be: With love and affection and pride to be showered upon her.

But, yeah... Needless to say, Lynx Dragunhart is back! With my heart mended and having her as the wind beneath these wings; I promise that we'll soar the heavens together! I love you, Angel-face! More then words, more then life, more then ANYTHING!!! I love you!

Now and forever yours,
Jeshua Aaron Cook (Lynx D./Miroku)