so i had a binge last night, but you know what? i'm really not panicking that much. i only had 191 calories all day before i lost it, so that's good. and i tried on my corset and it's like...loose at the top. in december i could hardly breathe in it. i also put on my old luckys WITH booty shorts on and it wasn't a fight at all. and i'm 115.8 right now, so i can absolutely stand to gain a few pounds. anything under 118 really isn't okay with me. i don't want to be a gross skeleton!
so here's what i ate:
a little piece of chocolate cake (mom said it was from kfc. it was pretty decent, nothing superwonderful, so i don't feel the need to go to kfc and ever get it again)
then i had a bite of that sees chocolate thing i've been looking forward to all week, and it was SO RICH that it was just gross! i was sooo happy to find that out because now i totally don't crave those at all anymore.
so of course to get the taste out of my mouth i had to eat something else, right? hah. so i went to the freezer and mmmm mice cream sandwiches. those bitches are GOOOOOOOOOD. so i had one. fuuuuuuuck it was delicious. so long story short i end up eating four of them lmao.
and then i'm like "shiit i'm done, i'm only a little uncomfortably full, i can stop now."
so i do, for a while, but then that stupid hunger-under-the-full thing kicked in so i went a little crazy again and had a fun-size twix. and you know what? it was bad, dude. it tasted stale and just not good. so i had a fun size snickers to get that taste outta my mouth because water just wouldn't work, but the snickers tasted bad, too.
that is WONDERFUL news because now anytime i want a twix or a snickers or a sees chocolatebomb i can remember last night and realize that they actually legitimately don't taste good anymore!
so i had another twix cause i'm stupid and then i had like two handfuls of peanut m&ms, which were also just okay. i think they were stale, but shhhh, let's not tell anyone that, let's just say they were gross.
so to sum it up, yes, i binged...bad. but i don't feel too guilty, because i really don't have any more cravings for sweets, because almost everything i ate last night was so unsatisfactory. so i'm adding up the things that had a label and this is what i've got:
4 ice cream sandwiches - 640
2 twix - 140
1 snickers - 80 (surprise to me)
m&ms - about 440
TOTAL BINGE: 1300
and we'll add like 150 for the cake, so 1450, which is still not a healthy daily caloric intake.
add the 191 i ate of real food and you have 1641, which we'll round to 1650.
so yeah, that's a huge amount for one day for me, but i also had a lot of green tea and i'm going to the gym and mostly fasting today and wearing a corset tomorrow so i'm really not worried.
in fact, i'm getting heartburn just remembering last night!
i think i'm gonna be okay.
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a little bit of insanity
mostly tekteks in the beginning, then it's about food.
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