Mood: Finnnne
Song: Misery Loves Company; Emilie Autumn
I just finished one of the books I have to read for school.
Its titled The Poisonwood Bible its actually really good.
I mean...I like the way its written.
Just the way the author writes is just...Mmm.
She was talking about how every river has to be crossed eventually.
Even the most treacherous ones. ******** s**t. I wish I could find the line.
Ughh it was so good.
It meant a lot to me, idk. Loool.
Haha. I made Travis lol so hard last night he puked.
Like five times. Huuur.
It was really weird because before that we were talking about Lisa.
And he asked me "Do I make you lol as hard as Lisa made you lol?"
Honestly he doesn't. Haha.
Idk it just idk. Made me remember how we'd joke about stupid s**t like fetus and had really dark humor together.
But whatever. You win some you lose some.
Sometimes the people you think will stay around forever, vanish.
If you had told me, Two or Three months earlier that I'd be with Connor again. I'd scoff at you and be like "nah he doesn't like me."
And ha. if you had said I'd lose lisa as a friend I would have laughed in your face and called you a liar.
All this makes me seem unhappy, but honestly, I haven't been this happy in like...God.
...********. January? Winter was really really hard for me. I never thought I'd come out of that depression geez. Lol.
I was reading my really old journal. Apparently I told Zeo that I'd always wait for him. Him being Connor. This was before him and I were dating and all that jazz. At the time when I said it, I felt like a I was being a little over dramatic. But then later I was like "...Um. Wow I really would."
I've doubted many people, and many relationships. Almost all of them.
But never with Connor. Never have I questioned my feelings for him. I've always known that I've loved him.
He's that light in my life that's never going to fade. TURNS MAH FROWN UPSIDE DOWN OLOLOL.
And Travis was like "wow lisa is totz jealous of connor in this vid." Cuz he was watching her videos idk why lmao.
I was like "...Whaaa? Really?" "...Um..yeah you couldn't tell?" "...No." "...Wow you're slow. xDD "
Out of all my friends she's the only one who's had issues with it being the way it is. Connor before everyone else. That's just how it is, and I'm so used to everyone being chill with it that I'm still kinda confused as to why she can't.
I love Connor. Idk. I just feel like I can't say it enough. xDDD
Ugh I had a dream where we kissed and ohh. ): It felt so amazing. And Real. When I woke up I was like "...why noooo." His embrace was warm and his lips soft. ; ____________ ; ******** my dreams for teasing me.
Song: Misery Loves Company; Emilie Autumn
I just finished one of the books I have to read for school.
Its titled The Poisonwood Bible its actually really good.
I mean...I like the way its written.
Just the way the author writes is just...Mmm.
She was talking about how every river has to be crossed eventually.
Even the most treacherous ones. ******** s**t. I wish I could find the line.
Ughh it was so good.
It meant a lot to me, idk. Loool.
Haha. I made Travis lol so hard last night he puked.
Like five times. Huuur.
It was really weird because before that we were talking about Lisa.
And he asked me "Do I make you lol as hard as Lisa made you lol?"
Honestly he doesn't. Haha.
Idk it just idk. Made me remember how we'd joke about stupid s**t like fetus and had really dark humor together.
But whatever. You win some you lose some.
Sometimes the people you think will stay around forever, vanish.
If you had told me, Two or Three months earlier that I'd be with Connor again. I'd scoff at you and be like "nah he doesn't like me."
And ha. if you had said I'd lose lisa as a friend I would have laughed in your face and called you a liar.
All this makes me seem unhappy, but honestly, I haven't been this happy in like...God.
...********. January? Winter was really really hard for me. I never thought I'd come out of that depression geez. Lol.
I was reading my really old journal. Apparently I told Zeo that I'd always wait for him. Him being Connor. This was before him and I were dating and all that jazz. At the time when I said it, I felt like a I was being a little over dramatic. But then later I was like "...Um. Wow I really would."
I've doubted many people, and many relationships. Almost all of them.
But never with Connor. Never have I questioned my feelings for him. I've always known that I've loved him.
He's that light in my life that's never going to fade. TURNS MAH FROWN UPSIDE DOWN OLOLOL.
And Travis was like "wow lisa is totz jealous of connor in this vid." Cuz he was watching her videos idk why lmao.
I was like "...Whaaa? Really?" "...Um..yeah you couldn't tell?" "...No." "...Wow you're slow. xDD "
Out of all my friends she's the only one who's had issues with it being the way it is. Connor before everyone else. That's just how it is, and I'm so used to everyone being chill with it that I'm still kinda confused as to why she can't.
I love Connor. Idk. I just feel like I can't say it enough. xDDD
Ugh I had a dream where we kissed and ohh. ): It felt so amazing. And Real. When I woke up I was like "...why noooo." His embrace was warm and his lips soft. ; ____________ ; ******** my dreams for teasing me.
