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dis is whur i b***h
To you
This is my last attempt.
I don't know what to do.
I want to grab you back.

I just don't get it.

I want you back.
If neither of us are happy, then why?
Are you happy?

I still love you.
You still love me.
Distance is such a trivial thing compared to the strength of love.
It sounds cliche, but its true.

What is it you're so afraid of?
Is it...The fear of being alone?
I think you're deathly afraid of being alone.
Maybe that's why you ended it?

I'm afraid of being alone too, you know.
I'm more so paranoid people are going to use me and then toss me aside.

But you know.
Even if I can't be there, you're not alone.
I'm always thinking about you.
You'll always be with me, maybe not physically, but still.

Can't you give me-
No, can't you give us one more try?
Is distance so bad that you have to give up someone you care for deeply?
You know I want to go to college there, so it would just be 2 years.
And you know I'd try to visit you on every break I have.

I can't force you to get back with me.
I can't force you to do something you don't want to.
But just think about it.
This is my last try to get you back.
I still have hope for us.
But now its up to you. The choice is yours.
You don't have to decide today.
Or tomorrow.
I'll give you until Tuesday.

After that, if you say no.
And you want to keep things this way, fine.
I won't fight with you.
I will respect your choice.

But just be aware.
I'll have to erase you from my memory.
Well not so much erase, but I'll have to put you in this box that I can never open.
We won't be able to talk. Probably until a year down the line.
Because you know our emotions will just resurface. And it'll happen all over again.
I'll still love you.
That I can never stop doing.
However, I can slowly push it down. I did it when you dated Michelle.

I hope, that you choose to give us one more shot.
Just try.
I don't know how you felt afterwards. But I just felt..
I don't know.
Empty.
You just kept sneaking into my mind.
I just kept thinking about when we just sang to each other, all happy like.
But yeah. The choice is yours.
Whichever decision you make, I'll still love and respect you.






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semajack
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commentCommented on: Sun Nov 14, 2010 @ 05:18pm
Sorry for the random comment on such personal feeling but I just wanted to tell you it will get better. Not really much to reassure you with but ... I felt you. Very nice writing and I'm sorry for prying. Hope you feel better soon.


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