I decided to make another journal since I'm so ******** bored. Ughhhh.
What the hell am I going to do with you?
Geez.
I like talking to you so much.
But I think your answer won't change on Tuesday.
I think you're just going to be stubborn and not change your mind.
Then.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
Can I really go without talking to my best friend?
All I did today was think about it. Haha.
What if I just am telling myself that everyone doesn't get us, just because I'm selfish and I don't want to lose you?
What if they ARE right.
And I'm the one who's wrong.
I don't know.
If my feelings are screaming that I'm right, is that enough justification to saying I am right?
What is right and wrong but just your opinion on something?
I think society relies too much on the standard 'right' and 'wrong'.
But that's neither here nor there.
I'm still waiting for Tuesday.
I think all I'll get is silence, which is an answer in itself.
Its not what I want, personally. But I'm not going to flip s**t if stuff doesn't go my way.
I sorta wanna give you till Friday.
Which is ...Probably too long to think about something like this to think about. Haha.
I don't know.
I feel weird having the reins in my hands.
I feel like for once, things are in my hands. I mean...I usually rely on people's advice, but for this...I feel like I need to listen to myself.
I'm sorry if I was really assertive in my last journal.
I just felt like I needed to say something to you, that I needed to be in charge for once.
But honestly I'm not in charge - You're the one who can change things.
I'm just the one who came to you this time.
Usually you venture back to me, this time I yanked you back.
But things will play out however they play out.
We'll just have to see.
What the hell am I going to do with you?
Geez.
I like talking to you so much.
But I think your answer won't change on Tuesday.
I think you're just going to be stubborn and not change your mind.
Then.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
Can I really go without talking to my best friend?
All I did today was think about it. Haha.
What if I just am telling myself that everyone doesn't get us, just because I'm selfish and I don't want to lose you?
What if they ARE right.
And I'm the one who's wrong.
I don't know.
If my feelings are screaming that I'm right, is that enough justification to saying I am right?
What is right and wrong but just your opinion on something?
I think society relies too much on the standard 'right' and 'wrong'.
But that's neither here nor there.
I'm still waiting for Tuesday.
I think all I'll get is silence, which is an answer in itself.
Its not what I want, personally. But I'm not going to flip s**t if stuff doesn't go my way.
I sorta wanna give you till Friday.
Which is ...Probably too long to think about something like this to think about. Haha.
I don't know.
I feel weird having the reins in my hands.
I feel like for once, things are in my hands. I mean...I usually rely on people's advice, but for this...I feel like I need to listen to myself.
I'm sorry if I was really assertive in my last journal.
I just felt like I needed to say something to you, that I needed to be in charge for once.
But honestly I'm not in charge - You're the one who can change things.
I'm just the one who came to you this time.
Usually you venture back to me, this time I yanked you back.
But things will play out however they play out.
We'll just have to see.
