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Raise Your Weapon - Deadmau5
Hangover-y

Well big shocker another day passes without a word from you.
Its times like these that I slowly start to lose trust in you.
I'm kinda close to saying '******** it' but you know how many times I've said THAT before.

Zak says you don't really realize what you're doing.
That something you'd do, like this, would kinda hurt my feelings.

Its just so frustrating.
Me, reaching out to you.
Because its not like I'm being whiney over this and haven't tried to reach him.
He just, I GUESS, doesn't have the time for me.

But I knew what I was getting into when I started talking to you again.
This comes with the package of Connor.
Along with babying and along with the weed.
I'm well aware of all of this.

I could have a world of faith in you.
I DO have a world of faith in you..
But when you do mindless things like these, I start to slowly lose that.

Do you blame me?

I'm scared though.
You're turned around doing god knows what...
And there's someone else wedging their way into my life.
This has never happened before.
And it happened so fast I was just kind of like 'Wait whoa what?'

Brittney thinks I should break away from you and give this guy a shot.
But I don't...Know...
Its so ******** up.
I don't even know why I'm so ******** scared.
There's something I want to know from you though.
Before I give up.

I just need to finally get your attention so you'll talk to me.
Sometimes I wish you'd still read these.