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So of course I tell Kait to learn from her mistakes and not do that again.
But what do I do that NIGHT?
Get ******** up and do stupid s**t. Lmao

Ugh I didn't do anything THAT bad.
Just made out with Jason's girlfriend.
It was just kinda annoying because I usually don't do stupid s**t like that when I'm ******** up.
It was even MORE annoying that everyone thought it was hot and Jason preceded to grab my a**. ANNOYING.

I'm getting really tired of him.
He just surrounds himself with chicks and its annoying as ********.

Theeen of course I called Connor.
Which shows how dependent I am on him.
Which sort of bothers me.
Bro I'm just destined to be alone forever.

Cuz obv. Connor and I won't work out.
And then no one here interests me whatsoever.
Even if I did like someone if Connor called or whatever I'd ditch them to talk to him.
I kinda like Fizz but I don't even know him and he doesn't even live here so its probs not even worth pursuing.

Maybe its better that way because my expectations are so high.
I always get disappointed in relationships anyway.
This way if I just don't even bother, I won't get disappointed.

I also feel like I need to get out of Tennessee.
Just feels like there's nothing here for me.
My family's here I guess.
But that's about it.
Family and friends.

Maybe I just feel suffocated.
Who knows.