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and then you realize you were a disaster.
But a beautiful one.
A short lived escape.

And now its quiet.
Your voice only heard every once in awhile.
Like a whisper.


I feel you.
I suddenly miss you.
Perhaps that's why I never told you about him.
He's wonderful, but not the same.
No its not the same.

My feelings for you, I guess will never go away.
No matter how hard I try.
All I can do is lock them away.

I'm scared she's heading down our path.
An up and down fickleness.
I know her intentions are true for him.
But he's oddly like you. Scared to death.
What is it you're scared of?
When you boys know we'll be right here.

We can't hold you within our arms.
But we can with our hearts.
Isn't that worth so much more?

I miss Connor.
I love him.
I tried to lock it away, suppress it.
He's afraid of this.
But he's always there within reach, just never getting too close.
The future scares him. The present is his life. Forever and always.
I have him more figured out than he knows.

I hope she's doing the right thing.
I can't tell her how to live her life.
I can just tell her to follow her heart.

"Speak softly but carry a big stick."

I understand how she feels for him.
That bond you feel.
That red string that ties you together.
That simple need for him.
An emptiness when he's gone.
And just the utter hopeless feeling you get when you fight.
I perfectly understand all of it.

Luis and Kait.
Kait and Luis.
Connor and me.
Me and Connor.

We're all just looking for happiness.
But there's something stopping us.
Perhaps they'll go further than us since they live closer together.

Fizz?
I do like him.
Its just...
I don't know.
I feel for him.
Its just not as strong has the connection I feel for you.
But if you keep doing this to me...Well.
Then its just not our time. You need to grow up.
I can't hang back and wait for you.
I would love to but life won't let me. I need to move, that's just who I am.
I wonder if you'd have a serious conversation with me.
You make it so difficult.
I KNOW you need me. And that just freaks you out, doesn't it?
You're stubborn. And I want to break that down.
I want to possess your heart.