I don't think you seem to understand just how afraid I am of you disappearing.
And is it so bad that I like to hear your voice?
Is it so annoying that I just want you to call a little more often?
What happened to when you'd call everyday?
I'm afraid you're going to slip away.
Like sand between my fingers, just sliding down.
You have a tendency to do that, you know.
Just disappearing and fading into the background.
I suppose I could have just come out and said, "Hey I want you to call me."
But idk I was just trying to be cute in a way.
How dumb was I.
I had a feeling you'd just say no.
It hurts though.
To know I'm not important enough to call.
At least that's how you made it seem.
I guess you just don't have enough time for me.
After all what do I expect?
It's not like we are anything at all.
I forget since we act like we are something.
I should have known there are better things to do than talk to me.
Mary Jane.
Alcohol.
Friends.
You name it, I'm definitely last on the list.
I can't believe you even tried to suck up to get out of me being upset.
No, you hurt my feelings so don't even try.
If you're going to just be insecure like that don't expect me to not get upset.
But at the sametime I feel bad for being upset with you.
I hate being upset with you.
It makes everything feel unbalanced.
I guess I needed a reality check though.
You give me the harshest of wake up's even when you don't mean to.
Do you even realize what you did wrong?
Sometimes you just don't think before you speak.
I'm afraid this might be the last time for us.
I don't know.
I feel like you're going to walk out.
I'm such an idiot.
We're nothing at all, Paige.
Get it through your head.
Just two people with a stronger connection than most.
That's it.
That's all its ever going to be.
With the way we both are, its never going to turn into anything else.
It shouldn't.
There's no need for that amount of pain - for either of us.
But then why does it still hurt anyway?
And is it so bad that I like to hear your voice?
Is it so annoying that I just want you to call a little more often?
What happened to when you'd call everyday?
I'm afraid you're going to slip away.
Like sand between my fingers, just sliding down.
You have a tendency to do that, you know.
Just disappearing and fading into the background.
I suppose I could have just come out and said, "Hey I want you to call me."
But idk I was just trying to be cute in a way.
How dumb was I.
I had a feeling you'd just say no.
It hurts though.
To know I'm not important enough to call.
At least that's how you made it seem.
I guess you just don't have enough time for me.
After all what do I expect?
It's not like we are anything at all.
I forget since we act like we are something.
I should have known there are better things to do than talk to me.
Mary Jane.
Alcohol.
Friends.
You name it, I'm definitely last on the list.
I can't believe you even tried to suck up to get out of me being upset.
No, you hurt my feelings so don't even try.
If you're going to just be insecure like that don't expect me to not get upset.
But at the sametime I feel bad for being upset with you.
I hate being upset with you.
It makes everything feel unbalanced.
I guess I needed a reality check though.
You give me the harshest of wake up's even when you don't mean to.
Do you even realize what you did wrong?
Sometimes you just don't think before you speak.
I'm afraid this might be the last time for us.
I don't know.
I feel like you're going to walk out.
I'm such an idiot.
We're nothing at all, Paige.
Get it through your head.
Just two people with a stronger connection than most.
That's it.
That's all its ever going to be.
With the way we both are, its never going to turn into anything else.
It shouldn't.
There's no need for that amount of pain - for either of us.
But then why does it still hurt anyway?
