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My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me,
So won't you kill me?
So I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,
To break or bury,
Or wear as jewelry.

Still no word from you.
This feels nostalgic.
Last summer we went through a little tuff before I came down there too.
Except that time was my fault, big time.
I wonder if it'll play out like it did.

But you're so different now.
You seem warped.
I'll give you another day to come to me.
I don't know if you will or not.

...I wonder if all I am is just a nuisance call.

I feel something so deep with us.
Why is it you can ignore it so well?
I know you feel it too.
Are you that afraid of this, so afraid that you're willing to risk us?
That's such a shame.
What is a life without risk - a life in a cage.

I can't always be here forever.


This vacation better not be a ******** waste of time.
You're a stubborn ******** and it pisses me off.
Just come on and admit you've hurt me.
Its not that hard. Everyone hurts each other, its bound to happen.
I don't understand why you always refuse to admit you've hurt me.

I know I've hurt you.
Even if it makes me feel kinda shameful to know that I have.
I hope you enjoy slowly killing me because that's what you're doing right now.
I wish you could read these.

Maybe I should just go ahead and play it off like this
"I'm afraid of you disappearing so I cling to your calls like their your last..You don't realize how often you just up and disappear."
Then he'll say something like "You're just being silly."
And I'll just agree because its easiest.

"So what's the point of falling in love with the perfect person , when its not the time nor place"

Indeed.
What is the point.

I'm too much of a romantic.
I think no matter what they should try just as hard I do for them.
But that's not the case, Paige.
This world is full of cowards and people who give up.
Why would the person I love, be any different?
And who's blaming them?
Who wants to be hurt on a constant basis because you can't be close to the person who means the most to you?
I guess I'm just a masochist.

No, I just honestly believe love is worth fighting over.
But the world isn't like that anymore.
The justice is lost, the innocence.

Its funny to think of you as innocent.
When you've done more bad things than I have.
I just feel like you are.
On the inside you're just so innocent.
But you're afraid to step out of your cold cage.
Once you've been burned, you don't want to get licked by the fire again.

Face to face.
Its all so much easier face to face.
I can read you and listen to your voice as your face changes.
I can watch you.
I can hold you.


I care too much.



Perhaps you just don't care at all.



Brittney thinks if I told you about Fizz you'd just push me towards him.
You probably would.
I don't think you think you're exactly...good for me.
You feel like its always a constant battle so you'd just rather give me away and have me be happy that way.
But then where are you?
Would you be happier that way, or just alone?
I'd probably get mad and think you're just throwing me away.
And you'd accept that.

You once tried to just make me hate you.
So I wouldn't come back. Even if it hurt you.
..You're such an odd person.
I wish I could figure you out.
I wish you'd let me in your head.

Oh god work is gonna be rough today.
I hate it when I just can't distract myself and think of other things.

I have a feeling its going to be me, going to you.

I'm so selfish though.
I don't want to lose you.
And I want to keep fizz close too.

You both are so different.
You're kinda selfish
Whereas Fizz is much too unselfish.
He's definitely a Leo.
And you're definitely a Taurus.

Our signs say we're too polar opposite to get together.
Haha.
I don't wanna lose faith in you though.
Maybe I'm to naive.

I hope you text me today.