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Today's just too weird.
Today's just too cold.
Today's just too long.
Today's just too dysfunctional.
Today's just too sad.

Is it possible to love someone so much you become afraid of them?

Life just feels so empty.
So meaningless, lately.
I have to give it meaning. I need something to strive for.
But where's my motivation?

I'm such an endless paradox.

And you.
I miss you so goddamn much.

This distance is cruel and disgusting.
I feel like I need to hold on to you tighter.
But at the same time I just don't understand why it feels so hard to give life some bit of spark.


Being needy isn't my style.
But lately that's how I feel.

I'm too whiney. Honestly.
I wish I'd just shut the ******** up.
Today's just one of the harder days.

Its not a big deal.
Just feelin' off today.


I wonder what you're up to.
Probably playing video games like usual.
You're such a damn nerd.



I wonder if I'm ever going to have to have that talk with you.
If I'm gonna have to disappear.
Anything is possible these days...
I wonder if its bad of me to feel bad for her because I know she wants no pity.
I just know how much they meant to each other.
I'm such a damn b***h for not saying anything or being there for her.