I feel on edge.
You're becoming sand.
I wonder if I'm just frustrated over that fact you're not here.
I'm always complaining about him and her not being here
Why the ******** can't I just be happy with the time they give me?
Why do I always want more?
I'm so selfish.
But with you.
I feel like I'm struggling.
School's got you busy.
School's got me busy.
The distance feels even greater.
There's almost a rift between us.
How hard is it to just say, "I care about you." "I miss you."
Why do all the things I want to say, never come out.
I'm afraid of what you'll do. Or say.
What if you're just like "Oh okay."
Can't people just show each other they care.
Is it so hard to let your heart show?
Why am I so afraid of you?
What's wrong with honesty?
I'm so afraid you're going to think I'm clingy, that I almost just want to hide.
What the ********.
When did I become so closed off?
Why do I suddenly need so much more from you? From her?
Lately I've felt like everyone's in one room, and I'm just standing alone staring in.
Watching them, diagnosing them.
I don't feel part of anything anymore.
Like I'm just there. Existing but that's it.
Its...Lonely.
I've never been one to be so....Afraid of being alone like he is.
But suddenly I'm terrified.
I'm the type of person who would lock someone in a cage so they could never leave.
And that's ******** up.
So ******** up in so many ways.
Why do I keep feeling so left behind.
Its like you're finally walking ahead and I'm the one stumbling behind.
I want to love you.
I want you to say cute things to me.
I want - No I need too much from you.
And its not your job to give it to me.
Everything is fine the way it is, its chill.
Why am I feeling so wrapped up and strangled though?
Had a dream I was queen.
Woke up I was still queen
I guess I'm just having a needy phase.
But I want you to come to me, needing me.
I always seem to go to you first though.
Maybe I need to harden up. Toughen up.
Get cold.
But that's not how I want to be.
I like being this warm, fun person.
As boring as I can be, I like who I am.
Deep down I like that I need you, but at the same time it proves s**t to me that I can't just ignore.
I'm afraid to play that game with you anyway.
Its too dangerous.
You're becoming sand.
I wonder if I'm just frustrated over that fact you're not here.
I'm always complaining about him and her not being here
Why the ******** can't I just be happy with the time they give me?
Why do I always want more?
I'm so selfish.
But with you.
I feel like I'm struggling.
School's got you busy.
School's got me busy.
The distance feels even greater.
There's almost a rift between us.
How hard is it to just say, "I care about you." "I miss you."
Why do all the things I want to say, never come out.
I'm afraid of what you'll do. Or say.
What if you're just like "Oh okay."
Can't people just show each other they care.
Is it so hard to let your heart show?
Why am I so afraid of you?
What's wrong with honesty?
I'm so afraid you're going to think I'm clingy, that I almost just want to hide.
What the ********.
When did I become so closed off?
Why do I suddenly need so much more from you? From her?
Lately I've felt like everyone's in one room, and I'm just standing alone staring in.
Watching them, diagnosing them.
I don't feel part of anything anymore.
Like I'm just there. Existing but that's it.
Its...Lonely.
I've never been one to be so....Afraid of being alone like he is.
But suddenly I'm terrified.
I'm the type of person who would lock someone in a cage so they could never leave.
And that's ******** up.
So ******** up in so many ways.
Why do I keep feeling so left behind.
Its like you're finally walking ahead and I'm the one stumbling behind.
I want to love you.
I want you to say cute things to me.
I want - No I need too much from you.
And its not your job to give it to me.
Everything is fine the way it is, its chill.
Why am I feeling so wrapped up and strangled though?
Had a dream I was queen.
Woke up I was still queen
I guess I'm just having a needy phase.
But I want you to come to me, needing me.
I always seem to go to you first though.
Maybe I need to harden up. Toughen up.
Get cold.
But that's not how I want to be.
I like being this warm, fun person.
As boring as I can be, I like who I am.
Deep down I like that I need you, but at the same time it proves s**t to me that I can't just ignore.
I'm afraid to play that game with you anyway.
Its too dangerous.
