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This song reminds me of you.
I used to play it a long time ago and it almost made me cry. Ha.
It was when we didn't really talk as much as we used too. And when you were dating Michelle. And I was just a confused mess.
So sad I never really realized how much I loved you until you started dating her.

I just got off the phone with you.
And for some reason I can't sleep.
I keep having all these thoughts jumble around in my head.
Just like how I just babbled about EVERYTHING.
About how much I care about you.
About how much it hurts me whenever you're sad.
About how much it made me mad when I heard Yamato hurt you so badly

You're such a fragile thing
Its almost heart breaking.
I wanna hide you from the world.
I want you to be mine.
I don't want to share.

Isn't that so selfish of me?
I want to be the one person you're closest to.
I'm not even blushing right now for some reason.
Writing so many embarrassing things...But they're true.
Its due time I told you about all these things inside my head right?
Even though I'm sure you know about how much I care about you.

I just feel like I need to say it.
I need to just tell you.

My feelings for you haven't changed in the slightest since I fell in love with you so many years ago.
Well they have changed.
They've gotten stronger.
Its kind of scary how much I need you.
Everything around me right now ******** sucks.
******** sucks bad.

I know I shouldn't rely on you so much..
I should know you can't make my problems disappear.
But whenever I talk to you it just seems like nothing else is wrong, nothing is crumbling.
Everything is fine.
Everything will be fine.

Ima read you what I wrote tomorrow.
And not be afraid to show you my heart.

I just have this silly paranoia that what I say will frighten you..
That you're going to run away.
And that would devastate me.
I have no idea what the hell I'd do without you in my life.
Where I'd be.

I love this fragile little boy, who gets hurt much too easy.
He seems like such a hot shot but on the inside he's just trying his best to be loved by everyone and escape loneliness.
He thinks its sucks that he's the way he is.
But I think its beautiful. He's true.
He's real.

He doesn't even realize that what I love about him most is just that - he's so lovable.

This is all so cheesy.
I wonder if you're going to read it.
You said that you do read my journals.
Which is kind of frightening considering I pour my heart and soul into these journals.
And some of the things I say are extreme.

But this is the one journal I really want him to see.
I want him to read this one if none of the others.