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That awkward moment when you want attention from someone, but you don't say anything because you know they're busy.
So you hope they'll notice you're kinda sad, but that awkward moment again when they don't notice and you don't want to say anything because you don't want to sound like an attention whore.

Pretty much yeah.
I hate being such a needy person sometimes.
Its annoying. To everyone. ):
I just don't wanna ask...Because I know he's busy doing someone else.

Makes me sad ha.
Skyrim makes me jelly too.
Not like I'd ever tell him.
Because that's being silly.

God I think I'm about to have my period because for real.
Just school makes me want to kill babies.
And then the whole thing with my grandpaw.
And then I'm being so needy towards Connor.

Its just guhhh overwhelming.
I just wish... IJUST WISH.
That you lived here.
Then everything would be a little bit more manageable.
Right now I feel so drained and just tired of everything.

My family keeps talking about preparations for my grandpaw's death.
Like what to do with the lawn service
And who has proper clothes for funerals.
Or even who to invite to the funeral or what to do.
How to manage the money after he dies.
Its just all so depressing, and makes reality hit you hard.

But it does take guts to get outta the ruts.
And I want out.
I'm tired of being all sad and depressive.
And I don't want to drown in it like Taylor does. ******** that.

siiiiiiiiiiighhh.
It'll be hard though.