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Hello all.
Just got back from watching Disturbia. It was Ok. It was slightly jumpy though.
I can't wait till tomorrow ^_^ It is my Boyfriend's and mine's 1 month anniversary. It'd be nice if we could hang out, hopefully we will.
I've had alot to think about lately and I've thought hard. There isn't one time I can ever remember having someone to lean on. Sad isn't it? Guess I don't open up to people because I'm always hiding my feelings so I can help other. I always push aside any feeling other then happiness when I'm with my friends. Can't be good for me, but I've done it for so long I don't think I feel anything right now. It's been a LONG time since I've had a good laugh. Been forever since I've ever smiled so sincerely. I think that laughing is a good way to make others smile and be happy, so I put on a fake smile, a fake laugh everyday, because I want people around me to be happy. I know I'm a little weird for saying so, but I think I've got a bit of empathy in me. When I'm around people, I usually feel what they are feeling. Like so much to the extent that I know exactly what they are thinking or about to say. I WANT to be happy, so since I don't know how to make myself happy, I make others around me happy, which in return makes myself happy. Wow, weird and long process. Guess it kinda sounds foolish on your end if you read this. It makes perfect sense for me. Oh well. Well, that's my deep thoughts about myself for today. Hope you have a great day ^_^
Sayanora