*sigh* Exactly why can't I be happy? I feel so depressed. Not in the I'm going to kill myself way but rather in a I feel nothing way. I want others around me to be happy so I can be happy, but.... isn't that being artificially happy. It's not the real thing. How come I can't be happy on my own? Why can't I love life? Two words that have REALLY been bothering me ALL day are "BE ASSERTIVE!!!" Though that's my own secret message that I doubt anyone will ever be able to understand. I've felt like a blob for awhile. My knees have been killing me all day and I'm still tired. I don't have any feelings today except for the slight pain and the fake happiness I show the whole world.... God I feel Emo right now emo
I know I'm not though. And that's not what I want to be. I just want to be bac to my normal bubbly, happy self. I feel like the world that I usually lock myself in to escape the real world has been put on lock down. And reality just hit home.... I want back in my own little world. I want to be happy, I want to laugh for real, I want I want I want..... Guess I'm asking a little too much. Well ttyl....
From the little girl who cried wolf.
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