During the night that lead to this morning this was what the dream/nightmare was.
I'm back to being a little kid. About age 7 or so. I was walking around some grassy meadow, or some sort, what was definetly in Alaska. I met some girl she was about my age. Wearing a lacy white dress... What the hell.
Girl: Hi! *with a smile.*
Me: *Huge grin* Hello! (even in my youth I was alone and eager to have some sort of friend.) My names ------, whats yours?
Girl:------. Would you like to explore with me?
Me: Yeah!
(in case any of you were wondering--- You never know the names unless I see fit. You sure as hell will never know mine. Maybe their's but never mine.)
We went into the woods. Explored. We found berries, insects, flowers, a lot of things. But eventually we found this small house. It looked battered and what not. It gave me the creeps. She turns and smiles and says...
Girl: Lets go in! Maybe theres something neat inside.
Me: I don't know... It looks haunted... (God, I was such a coward back then...)
Girl: Theres no such things as ghosts silly. Come on we'll go in together. *holds out her hand*
Me: o---ok... *foolishly takes the hand*
We both walked in side but for some reason as soon as we walked into the house I became disembodied in my present 17 year old self, the one I am now. I followed myself and the girl. They went upstairs, I followed. They went into all the mid level rooms, I followed. They went into the basement, I followed... There was another room down there they were about to go into it but I found something that took my attention. I studied it for awhile, but I don't what it was... As I pulled myself away from it I looked at the door. There was a light on and the door was half cracked open, then I heard the two scream, screaming bloody murder. I ran to the door and as I opened and stepped through the door I was blinded by vision of death caused by various insturments. It wasnt the kids it was a young woman, I flung myself out the door and fell to the floor. I almost vomitted (I should have a much stronger stomach than that. The room was spinning. The violence kept flashing on and off, I crawled to the stairs then ran up and out of the house. About ten steps out of the house my head hurt. The earth spinned, everything had shaky white outlines, i fell to my knees. I stood back up only to fall backwards, everything kept spinning, the white was blinding. I looked up into the spinning skies bordered with the white shakiness. I couldn't breathe, why couldn't I breathe? What the hell is happening to me!?
I shot up in bed taking deep breathes of air in the middle of the night. To silence.
 Langendorfer · Mon Feb 04, 2008 @ 01:54am · 0 Comments |
