Another page with another dream/nightmare.
I was crawling on the ground in the middle of a street. I was covered in blood, I had holes in my body, all over my body. I was calling for help but people kept walking. I tried grabbing at them but they just kept moving through me... no one was there nobody heard me... But I heard a lot of voices that were talking to me.
No one will ever love you becuase your nothing.
You are a waste of space, nothing more.
It kept making me feel worst and worst inside. I actually felt I was nothing. It kept festering inside of me.
You have no place. You have no family. Why do you think your father just anbandoned, becuase he knew you were an empty assesst to his life.
Kept building like a building.
She died becuase of you.
It hurt.
All becuase of you. no one else... just you.
And all I want to do is die.
She was the only one who loved you. And you killed her. Now wonder everyone sees you as a monster. becuase they know you killed such a beautiful creature.
What a better enemy than yourself to put you into the ground. Remember childeren, yourself is the most horrible enemy you can ever have so never tell yourself your secrets but at the same time share them. Perhaps you should only wory if you hate yourself though and have a split personality. Hard to say these days... I continue to crawl through the street with blood all over me. I told myself...
Me: I will always love her though... I just hope she still loves me and that she can find it in her heart to forgive me.
That is the end. With myself screaming at myself to the end.
 Langendorfer · Sun Feb 17, 2008 @ 06:04am · 0 Comments |
