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...Silence can be so peaceful sometimes...I don't want to do anything anymore but sleep and watch noneducational, pointless, and demeaning shows...I can't think of any at the moment but whatever.

why this way? I wont blame it on the anti-depressants cause I don't bother to take them anymore. They can't make this hole in my heart heal. They can't make me happy around people. Im sick and tired of all this s**t. Really what the hell...

I just broke up with my bf...can't call him that anymore, he's probably taken by now anyways. Shitty no doubt. bloody hell...I've never felt more like s**t then I am now. life loves me, can you tell?

Its funny how life can be...I've woken up so many times during the time, lost, wondering what possessed me? Im withering away...My hearts not good...and I'm only 18...I'll become a real phantom soon enough...life shunned me, and death is urning to embrace me.

I no long feel any sexual desire. I'm so numb I can't even express a single emotion...people don't notice me anymore, but it doesn't matter. I'll be gone and its better if people forget I was ever around.